This morning I woke up and saw my mom lying on her bed. My 1st thought was "Shit.."

She's supposed to be working on Sundays. Seeing her at home meaning something is very wrong. Its all my fault, she contracted the same illness from me..

Luckily the doctor didn't mention anything serious, only given her flu tabs, cough syrup and lousy lozenges. The MCs should do her good, giving her a few days of rest from work..

If only I had not been stubborn and visit the doc earlier..

Everytime a pal breaks up with his gf, there will be a good chance of me losing him as a friend. Because sometimes their gfs will call and confide in me instead.

Those pals of mine have either dumped them for another woman, or simply saying the cruel 'no more feelings' verdict. When they called me and I got to learn about it, I felt so ashamed of those pals. Argued with a few, lost contact with the rest. But what I gained was priceless la, right?

No idea why, but such things have been happening to me all these years. And thanks to that, I have a few understanding good buddies whom I can chat heart to heart today. Now, who says a guy and girl cannot have pure friendship? =P

Maybe I make a better buddy to confide in, than a good bf to be with. Sophia says so.

Anyway Spain won 4-0, owning match, YEAH.

I'm still coughing away, goner cough my lungs out someday.

Ciao.

I'd just finished chatting with one of my primary school friend. We weren't close at all during the 6 years in class, and weren't close at all even till today. Yet it feels so happy to chat about the good old times and having all the sweet memories coming back..

She used to stay a few blocks away from me. Surprisingly she's still able to recall seeing my mom fetching me home, though I started going home alone most of the time ever since primary 2. There's also this mama shop below my place, all 3 owners love me to bits. Used to play around the void deck with my buddies too, it was so much fun..

I was in EM1, but honestly my grades aren't something to be proud of. All I did was had fun, and mom was too busy to check on me. Thanks to my father, she has to work all the time. So a bad student like me who didn't study deserves one of the lowest scores in class. PSLE was only 229..

Heard alot about my former classmates. Medical schools, dentist, lawyers, all the high flyers. I'm not surprised. So many of my classmates went to schools like RV, Chinese High, Raffles Int. Sometimes I wonder if I'm supposed to be like them too. Obviously not, right?

1 of my classmates passed away. If you're thinking dying at the age of 23 is sad, think again. He passed away after O's. The worst part is I only get to know about it today. He was one of the brainy kids, I still remember he had 260+ for PSLE. Heard he did damn well for O's as well. So sad he had to leave us so early..

Enough of childhood.
I'm still sick and feverish.
Should be resting soon, blood shot eyes..

Ciao.

Can somebody please tell me the definition of a FRIEND?

Doesn't it vex you when you keep getting rejected or stood up? I really hate it when I tried getting them out, yet each and every single time they'll have fabulous reasons to say sorry. Worse, some simply tells you they're busy. Handling big business? Or school's so super loaded with assignments? Till the extent they can enjoy and have fun, yet unable to spare a few hours just to catch up?

For goodness sake, I did my part, I made the effort to ask. Time and time again I got disappointed, time and time again I tolerated. But what is this, my own wrong doing?

IF you made a promise to go out, MAKE SURE you do so. I seriously hate broken promises.

IF you don't wish to hang out with me in the 1st place, let me know. I'm very sure I'll NEVER bother you again.

Lets not waste each other's time and efforts.
You know who you are.
In fact there's a few.

Those who knows me will understand I do care for all my friends. If there's troubles I'll help. At times I'll send a simple 'takecare' sms. Meeting up and catching up is something I enjoy. I'm really glad most of you appreciates what I do. Thank you.

Sometimes it really shows who are the real pals who will stay by my side, and who's totally not worth the trouble.

PISSED.

When Chiuji first met Kyoko, she was already wheelchair bounded. Even though they grew to understand and love one another, but obstacles still stand in their way. Dating is restricted by steps and stairs, even family members discourage their relationship. However even though things weren’t smooth sailing, that didn't stop them from staying together..

It really takes a lot of courage to have an handicapped love..

Kyoko’s handicap wasn’t cause by accident, but by an illness. She spent years working and fulfilling her life, while waiting for her illness to get cured or worse. Especially after meeting Chiuji, her will to stay alive is at its strongest. However, reality often show us its cruel side..

When things got worse and Chiuji learnt about Kyoko’s limited time, he didn’t run away. He gave up his dreams, just to stay beside. He even chose to end his life if she was to end. Spending every last second they had, they made lotsa wonderful memories together. Right until the very end..

“You must live on..on my behalf..sorry for everything till now..thank you..” was what she last said. He didn’t cry. All he did was looking at her happy face. Her tears were still warm. That was her very last smile..

At the funeral, he volunteered to put make up on her. Her favorite face powder, lipstick, he carefully put them on, trying to make her beautiful again. He even combed her hair, like the time when she first stepped into his salon..

“Kyoko..why are you so cold..”
“Don’t ignore me..say something..”
“Smile..I made you look so beautiful..at least smile for me..”

He finally broke down and cried..

In the end, he fulfilled their shared dream. A little salon house by the seaside. On the walls are all their memories in photos, and in the house kept her favourite couch, her wheelchair, her pair of favourite high heels from him, and the little love ornament from her..

I wonder how much pain it feels to lose someone..
I wonder how much strength it takes to hold back the tears..
I wonder if I ever have the courage to face my love..and put on makeup for her..

It is really very sad to lose someone. Though people always stupidly say “Aiya com’on lah this is just a freaking fictional drama”, but how many will realise such shows are actually part of the reality and life? Must is always be the last moment, when they are on the verge of losing their love ones, then they will become so regretful, thinking how stupid they were not to cherish?

Its time to wake up.. If you're still dreaming away..

Anyway, Korean dramas are real time wasters with similar plots and absurd stories. Taiwan dramas only show you the sweetest stuff with the cutest girls and the smartest boys. But Japanese dramas always contain so much meanings and feelings in life..

Very obvious what my favorite type of drama is.

Typed too much for tonight I guess.

Ciao.

Was out with Airisi today, haven't met her for ages.

Have been on the phone with her recently, had fun and laughter. So we decided to meet up for shopping since it was her day off. At first we went Suntec, hunting her watches and handicraft stuff, but couldn't find any. We had lunch @ Marche, sambal stingray and softshell crab! But it was only like the 2nd time I ate there, quite pathetic isn't it?

After lunch we went Bugis, and she bought the watch for $185. Quite a birthday gift for some guy I must say, but she kept refusing the idea of her liking him whenever I tried poking my nose around. Oh well..

Later on we ended up @ Orchard, walking around trying to do some shopping. But my shopping mood was so bad today, I couldn't find anything that suits my taste. Seems to me she doesn't like to have someone to shop with her as well, saying its weird I kept following her while she's looking at her stuff. Anyway I think things ended up pretty badly and we splited in the end, she going home via cab, while I walked to the MRT alone..

Perhaps we just don't click when it comes to shopping. Felt so sorry dragging her around aimlessly, it must have been rather boring. Its like so weird that nothing comes to my brain today, she have to keep deciding places to go and stuff. Doubt she'll go shopping with me again. Failed badly..

The same scenario actually happened days before too. Was out for beer and lunch @ Brewerks with a few army pals. In the beginning we had fun eating and chatting and drinking. But when lunch ended, you see 4 big man walking around aimlessly in town, trying to find things to do. Ended up heading home at the end too. It was like SO BORING..

Is it me or..?

Anyway I realised there are many places I have not been to before. Even town area looks so unfamiliar at times. Have I stayed home too much? Honestly my circle of friends have been shrinking at a pretty fast pace ever since army days. Think its time for me to get friendly again? Going out with her today really enlightened me quite abit..

So, who wanna date me out nowadays?
Hint: I wanna watch She's The Man.

Ciao.

Last night was such a disappointment..

Even though it was hot. Even though the food sucks. Even though it was so cramp. At least the sight of my old friends was worth all the troubles. But, how come only 8 of us showed up?

Supposed to have a few more, have no idea why they didn't turn up in the end. Shy to meet their fellow classmates after 7 years? Or just simply couldn't be bothered? I'm not too sure. But I'm just very disappointed..

Supposed to take lotsa photos, but took none with my phone in the end. Had a few shots with teachers and friends though, with their cameras. Hopefully I'll get to see them..

Felt so lost at home last night, moodswing. Maybe because of too many sad things and disappointments recently. Went crazy and took 2 pics of myself. YES, I took photos of myself. Unbelievable isn't it? Sun goner rise from another side. But ya, here they are.





























2nd pic look silly. But who cares.

Introduced a few friends to watch '1 Litre of Tears' recently. I'm glad they get to watch it, because I feel it will be a good lesson in life. Cherish, determination, family, love. Ofcourse, not all humans have feelings. Some people tend to watch it with emotions, while some simply laugh at jokes, wonder about the plot, but never think of the meanings. Watch for the sake of watching huh..

I dare say those who didn't feel any touched, emotional, or learnt any meanings from the show, they are not any close to understanding me at all..

But who cares really..

Ciao.

Something weird happened days back..

Was chatting with Alison when suddenly my phone rang. "Hello, is this MacDonalds?"

-.-" <-- instant reaction

How could someone be silly enough to call my house and ask for Mac? The number isn't even close! When I said no, that guy can still give a big laugh and hang up. Made me fuming mad..

The weirdest part is, just when I'm answering the call, Alison's phone rang too. "Hello, may I speak to Mohammad Ali?"

-____- <-- ...

Coincidental? Its like wth, people love to give prank calls nowadays? All the pea brains.. ROAR!

Anyway was chatting halfway, then Mom came in and saw me fidgeting with my camera. She just posed out of the blue, and I took the pic almost instinctively..


Isn't she sweet? My Mommy ok!

That night, I received a call from someone I least expected to call. It was like, we met 5 years ago, and had never chatted once on the phone? Yet that night we spent hours on the phone, happily chatting away. Fate is sometimes like a kid, who loves to play around..

Tonight, I'm going for my sec sch reunion dinner. My school will be demolished soon, and this will be the last dinner there. A place full of memories, very sad that it is going away. Will take lotsa photos. Will look at spots I used to play at. Will miss my school..

Can't think of anymore to type..

Ciao.

Was shopping for stuff this noon @ Sunplaza, then suddenly, PIAK! My left slipper opened its big big mouth.. -.-"

Oh my, poor slipper has been with me for 2 long years. Inin bought it for me, and I have been using ever since. How am I going to live without it now? Not until I can have a replacement isn't it. Poor wallet too, in such a bad shape. Got it from Inin 2 years ago too, I'm still holding on to it. Until a replacement too, I guess..

But hey, 23rd June coming soon.. =P

Actually I just got home from my usual jog. But something went wrong halfway through, and I completed the rest of the run, limping. Seems like my old thigh wound have not recovered and it was aggravated. Worse, my shin hurts quite abit, and my loin as well. My whole left leg feels rusty and useless, giving me a big jot of pain every step I took. Walking is still alright, but I guess no more jogging for me for a long long time..

Have been tearing quite abit recently. Windstruck, the thought of losing your love ones to Death, urgh. 1 Litre of Tears, literally brought out the emotional side of me. And I saw My Girl & I today, just as touching as Windstruck. But I still prefer the original jap version though, more feelings more tears. My Girl & I was just a lesser korean variation..

But the thing that made me teared the most, was my new pair of contact lens..

4 more days before cousin Nelson goes Tekong. Good luck to him, new chapter of life awaits. He's goner have fun with the all the guys. Lets just hope he doesn't bend down during showers, hiak hiak.. =X

Tomorrow goner be a long day for me, waking early early in the morning, sigh..

Ciao.

Woke up to a heavy raining Sunday.

Weather was cool, the breeze made me feel good. Watching the raindrops falling, it somehow showed me a beautiful scene. There were a few little kids playing in the field below, and I envied them, reminding me how old I am..


A piece of the sky.

Was out with Phyllis and Qiwei on Thursday. Both i knew for quite some time, especially Qiwei, my childhood buddy since pri school. Ages had passed since i last met both, so it was a really happy day. Though aimlessly walking around in town, we had a great time chatting and listening about our lives. We even sinned at NYDC, huge choco drinks and delicious 'fattening' mudpies. Simply can't resist..

That night i went to meet up with cousins and their friends for X-Men 3. Cool show, expected plot, with a few unexpected twist. Didn't expect Cyclops to die so early in the show. Didn't expect Xavier to die. Was expecting Pheonix to be prettier, lol. Well, it was rather nice nonetheless. I just hope there aren't X-Men 4, cause that old man Magneto had his power back at the very last scene..

Friday was pretty stagnant, stayed home to finish my shows, and reading my recently bought book. Remember the sad jap drama I blogged about previously? Came across the real life victim's diary, and I was quite attracted by it. So here am I nowadays, trying to read all the chinese words, and luckily I'm pretty good with it. Went to cousin Nelson's place and stayed overnight, watching DVDs and stuff. Got home the next day around 11pm, bathed, chatted on msn, and slept soon after..

Feel like going overseas soon. I want to go on a trip, relax myself, gather my thoughts. I want to see things that can't be found in Singapore. I want to learn more about life. Hope I will be able to find a good partner for all these trips. Will be better if it is a group of friends..

I am interested to learn the Sign Language. Checked up the courses @ Singapore Association for the Deaf, and found that the cost is damn steep. It will take one damn long year to finish all the stages of the course, slow and expensive. I was expecting something more pleasant..

Well if anybody is interested to join me, let me know? Be it Sign Language, or be it overseas trips.

Its goner be a long week soon.

Ciao.