Sorry bout the lack of entries recently..

Have been busy with work and flu. Seems like my body is breakin down soon with the frequent changes of workin shifts. Oh my am i really gettin old? Used to be countless sleepless nights before i can really feel the kick, and nowadays its like half a day and i'm damn dozin off already? Oh gosh..

Bein down with flu brings back lotsa memories. How someone will insanely rush back to my place in the middle of school and show me that worried face. How she will change wet towels for me and stayed with me the whole day. Same when she was down with fever and insisted on comin to my place, ended up changin wet towels for her the whole night through till i dozed off. Those are my wonderful memories for keepin.. =]

Realised there isn't anyone who will be worried anymore.. Needless to say changin wet towels..

Have not been in the best of moods. No particular reason, just feelin down. Yeah, the moody quiet me is back. Back to my old cosy shell once again..

Ciao.

I'm so tired!! ARGH..

Sat was my off day, woke up rather early that day, went for a jog. The whole noon i was online browsin through stuff and chattin with KaiLi, until evenin i ran along to Dan's place for mahjong with my colleagues.

We played 10-20cents only, for the kick of it. Dan is the professional leh, he always have his usual game with khakis every weekend. The rest of us are like lambs to the slaughter hahaha. But that night i think my lucky star was shinin brightly in the sky la, i kept winnin and winnin! Made alot of mistakes too, so angry with myself.

This section if for those who know mahjong:
Got 1 game, the moment i open my tiles, wow very red! Only 2 'tong' and 2 'north', the rest are all 'wan zi'! And they're so nicely in order somemore! But i too sucks la, friend threw 'north' early in the game i forgot to 'pong'. Then since i missed out the 3rd 'north' i should throw away my own 'north' and 'tong' tiles, but i didn't! I keep getting '9 wan' but i threw them away! Omgosh i really dunno what i was doing until the game finish without me winnin, and Dan's Gramps was like laughin at me playin that round. Awww felt so paisei and stupid.. *bang wall*

Okay back to the story.

We were supposed to play until 11+ only, Bryan and i workin the next mornin. But then we were like reluctant to stop, so out of spur, we decided to continue! Played 4 rounds straight until almost 7am. Dan and i won! Over 20 bucks each, but we played for the kick of it, so no money was involved la hahaha. After a little wash up Bryan and i took a cab down to work le..

Wow the moment we finished our Mac breakfast, Zzz.. So sleepy! It was only 8am we were like wonderin 'how on earth are we suppose to survive till 5pm!!' The feelin is very high lor, eyes red and watery, starrin at the comp dunno what to surf also. Nearly dozed off a couple of times, immediately knock out durin my 1 hour lunch break lor. Whole day the customers who called in can hear me mumblin la, really really no energy to entertain them at all..

Seriously wished i can head home straight after work la.. But we all agreed to have a game of badminton that evenin! So i went all the way to Jurong and meet up with Dan and company again. I'm the lousiest among us la, even the girls can bully me de. After 3 hours of the game, you can see me dyin already. I didn't really play much la, but ya, tired enough..

After the game Bryan, Qiong and i went Mac for dinner, and we finally head home after that. Was already midnight by the time i reached home la. Had a quick shower, settled my stuff, already 1am+.. As soon i hit my bed, fwah.. Zzz.. K.O Game Over..

Just now woke up with a cramp on my right leg la.. So pain! What a nice way to start my day. Not enough sleep! Am goner head to work soon.. Roar..

Ciao.

Was shoppin with a friend and we were havin a great time together. Even had Ktv and was havin so much fun. Just before we were bout to head home, there is this little boy who suddenly hugged my leg. Omgosh i swear to God he's so cute! We played with him for awhile, and oh my he loved us so much.

Soon we realised he's actually lost, his parents nowhere to be seen. Brought him to information counter, but nobody came! We were so panicked then, no idea what to do with him sia. In the end we brought him to make a police report, and decided to take him in until his parents come.

Oh my, my mom was so amused at the sight of him la. Furthermore she didn't see my friend before at all, so it was like me suddenly bringing home a woman and a kid! SO FUNNY i tell you. Had a pretty hard time explainin everything. But he's sooooo cute my mom loved him to bits! Soon after he settled down, i send my friend home..

The next day we were out shoppin again! This time we were buying all the babies stuff! Hahaha its so fun la, buyin all the clothes, diapers, toys, etc etc etc! Bwhahahah so fun la. So unforgetable..

Weeks passed but still no news from the parents, we were actually gettin pretty worried. Months passed, and we were gettin so used to boyboy already. The police did tell us his actual name, but i had forgotten already. His parents seems to have fled from Singapore, unable to locate them at all. And finally, we were given a choice to adopt him, or send him to the orphanage..

We were already too attached to him la. Out of spur i even taught him to call me Daddy, and he really did! He even called my friend Mommy, and ya, by then we were already together.. This little boy seems to be like the string of fate between us.. We dont wish to lose him at all..

So we decided to adopt him! We named him Xander 杨天乐! We did all the necessary legal procedures, and he officially became our adopted son! Oh my how blissful things were? I felt so 幸福 can! There was this darlin wife whom we were so loving everyday seems to be like honeymoon. There was cute little 天乐 brought to us by fate whom we love to bits. There was my lovin mom who understands every single thing. What else can i ask for..

Suddenly i heard 徐婕儿 - 我可以忍受 playin on my handphone la. I was lyin on my bed, blanket on the floor, bolster tightly held in my arms. I woke up smilin. WAH LAO..

日有所思，夜有所梦？

(PS: i didn't dream of my father.. but brother was married and stayin elsewhere..)

Realised i havent been bloggin for almost 10 days. Have been busy. Nothing much, just work, bowlin, ktv, mahjong, movies, dinner, shoppin, camp, friends, buddies, meetings, and stuff..

KaiLi is going Bintan in a few hours' time! Oh my i goner miss her.. Pray her fever will be long gone before she can even board the ferry later.. Takecare!! >.<

My colleagues are a bunch of crazy folks. I'm only a few weeks old @ my workplace but we're already so mixed and fun together. Omgosh so many of them are good singers, makes me feel so tiny @ ktv hahaha. Just had mahjong awhile ago, and unlucky me lost to all 3.. Geez..

Am headin to a funeral tomorrow morning, colleague's dad suddenly passed away. That night we were still smilin and laughin, even wanted to go Dbl-O but i pulled out in the end. Who knows the very next day this would happen..

Life is so fragile can? Few mornins back i was smsin my friend bout this lady who met mishap at the junction near my place. Were on my way to work and the next thing i realised was her lyin on the road. Few of us helped out ursherin the cars away, while the driver was checkin on her until the ambulance came. Its quite sad how SO MANY people can look mercilessly @ us like monkeys in the zoo. Never help never mind, why keep starin? What, are we puttin up a performance or somethin? Cb.. Really made me feel like scoldin vulgar..

Seriously.. 人生短短几十年..
没有人会知道自己几时走..
要就珍惜现在.. 想做得就去做..
不要再浪费自己的生命和时间..
如果经历一点挫折就放弃..
吃了一点苦头就自暴自弃..
那就去死好了没人会理你..
更凄惨的人多的是..
想活下来的人多的是..
你活着简直是浪费..

Hahahaha ok maybe i'm too harsh with that. But it hurts to see friends giving up life so easily. Especially when the hiccups they had are such mediocre stuff compared to so many. They love to complain bout how bad things are. Once or twice is still alright, but endless whining and yet not doing anything bout it, what good can it bring? It really get on my nerves some times..

I may sound depressed at times, always talkin bout sad stuff, but that is me. I love sad songs. I watch sad shows. You can say its a god damn sick fetish. But at least i'm never a person who can't move on. I dont brood over spilled milk. So those who never seem to understand this part of me at all, maybe now you'll catch a glimpse..

It really aches my heart seein dear friends drownin in sorrow. They're like birds who hurted their wings, though healed, yet not wantin to soar the sky anymore. Please, you won't wanna get stuck on the ground for the rest of your life. You won't wanna starve to death. Fly, and there'll be freedom and life on the other skies. And you'll never be alone, we'll all be flyin side by side..

4am soon, i better have my rest.

Ciao.

Someone used to tell me..
There's a song i can sing to her..
And the lyrics will sing out my feelings..

静静地 静静看你熟睡的身影
请相信 这是我一生最难的决定
不曾说过 有一天会离开你
你一直以为我还是你的

留给你 留给你最后一封信
从今后 我要好好的想想我自己
为你付出的从不说可惜
现在的我 有一颗平静的心

我爱你 虽然我已经放弃
我爱你 伤心不能再继续
我爱你 虽然心已经远离
我爱你 豈只一句话就说得清

要不是你学不会去珍惜
又怎么会是这样的一个结局
我真的真的不怨你
因为这是我自己 自己的决定

感觉早在两年前的意外后，宣布死亡..

但其实，在意外之前的一切，都是美好的回忆。那五年的岁月，除了充满了快乐的时光，也让我学习了什么是感觉、什么是爱。简直就是人生中最快乐的日子。但世事往往残酷无情..

一个人，不是懂得珍惜，就不会失去。
同样的，不是懂得爱情，就能一直继续下去。

今天的我，不是害怕失去，也不怕不能继续。而是感觉死去，一切变得僵硬。几次明明碰上了，却当做没一回事。直到身边一个个幸福了，才觉得自己很笨，一直支持她们而忽略了快乐..

但是，也许我并不是怕爱，只是宁愿等待..

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“你开心就好”
这五个字真的很深奥..
你知道吗？

Life is easy, life is hard.
Time is short, time is fast.
Relationships are simple, yet are not.

In life things you cherish doesnt mean it wont leave you, things you love the most doesnt mean you wont lose it. But in life one thing about the beauty of it is to learn to give your best, so when looking back you wont say "I wish i had done better, I've made a mistake."

We learn through relationship, we learn through hurting the ones we love most. We know its wrong yet emotions got the better of us, but admitting whats wrong and loving each other more is whats more important.

Things broken can be mended, but will never be the same pieces again. There are still times when you must learn how to let go and move on. Cause spinning around and around, hanging here and there, though you might not choose to believe in the fact, it still doesnt get you anywhere.

Just believe in what you choose, who you love, be who you wanna be, and love the ones who loves you. There are nights that makes you feel lonely and wanting company, having only the dark sky to gaze endlessly upon. But when the sun rises, warmth brings hope and makes us feel happy and a new day begins again.

Anyway, who says being human is easy in the first place.

Ciao.

Was so happy but tired last night..zonked out before I can even think of blogging =P

Met an old pal for bball in the noon. Wow 6 years of not playing is really taxing lor? Feel so old already, lazy to jump lazy to run. Still won the other kids la, though some are taller than me -.- but our madness sec school training last time is uncomparable LOL..

Sec school friends threw a party for me @ CCK Kbox that night. Had fun singing and laughing together, made lotsa noise and jokes. Initially was quite sad, because there's this person I admire, told me she couldn't make it to the party. But then halfway through she suddenly appeared right in front of my very eyes! Even brought along a cake with her. Was so dumbfounded la, my expression should be quite funny that moment. Thanks to CK too, they both planned it beforehand. Really sweet surprise..Thanks =]

Many friends think she has a temper, very 'fierce'. But to me she was never angry, its just a way she express herself. She may look hard on the outside, but deep inside, I know she's just as delicate as most of us. Someone with lotsa feelings..















My birthday cake! 1 candle only because someone say too old no need so many -.-"

Good things don't usually come alone.

Got home around 2am. Was trying to find my remote control for the lights in my room, then I saw this very HUGE white postage on my desk! The very 1st person that came into my mind, was her. I'm so happy, she surprised me once again..















The BIG BIG postage =D















Can see the words? =P















There's always a postcard in each surprise she gives.















Not many knows my favorite sweet..but she knows =]















Last but not least..















She bought me a wallet..

I am really very happy to see her present. Though I told Alison birthdays aren't bout presents, but seeing all these made my day even better. Even my brother bought me a cordless phone for my room. Bwhahahhaa. Maybe its still bout presents after all LOL =P
















My new cordless phone!

I'm really blessed to have so many sweet nice and caring people around me. I had a really meaningful 23rd birthday. Thanks for all the wishes and gifts. Thanks for everything.

Ciao.

And so the day arrived..

Was out the whole day, tiring. Went for an interview at StarHub, 99% sure I'll be selected. Though the interviewer made me wait for more than 30mins, she did give me a pleasant time. I shot her with lotsa questions, got even. Haha..

Good pal CK came to town specially for me, was quite touched. So we had dinner, walked around PS a little, and I accompanied him home. After dropping him off at Jurong, I went to meet Xx at Bishan for movie. Long long journey..

Just My Luck. Damn sweet show can? Its pretty funny too, and you can really learn how unlucky a person can be. So be glad ya, though without ample of good luck, at least you dont get bad luck all the time..

The clock struck 12 when I was on the bus home. Just sent Xx home, so was taking a journey back home alone, and it was pouring. Quite funny, no feelings this year. Its like any other day, nothing special, nothing new. Some nice friends remembered and called or smsed, really glad to have them around. Maybe its such days that we'll realise who's really nice and who's not? Haha nvm just kidding..

Whats so special bout birthdays anyway. Everyone else go around celebrating it with their friends or gfs. I don't really care, except for the time when min, inin or others will celebrate for me. But I do like surprises though, love how they can surprise me every single time..

I still feel birthdays is important in another way. Its the day I'm born, thats right. But its also the day mom suffered to bring me to life. So I dedicate today to my mom, for bringing me to this world, and bringing me up all these tiring 23 years. Thanks mommy..

Maybe I'm sad.. Sad at the fact the person I hoping to remember, didn't..

Ciao.

First of all..

Thanks for all the concerns bout mom. She's feeling much better now, today is the last day of her MC, and she'll be free from work until coming Sunday. Thank goodness..

This early noon, there was this damn BIG bee flying around in my room. It scared the highlights out of me la, appeared right in my face, nearly fell from my chair. Thought I chased it out with my pillow and I closed all my windows. But who knows this evening when I tried putting on my berms, I got freaking shocked! Lotsa soil, and 4 crawling green yucky worms!

Mom said its the bee's hive. I just wore the berms yesterday, and the windows were closed all the time till this noon. So I assumed it had worked very fast, building up the nest while my windows were still open. It must have been so sad when I closed the windows, seperating it from its hive.

Yesterday I travelled all the way down from Sembawang to SengKang, just to have a late late lunch. And the reward: Someone made me Oreo cheesecake! So happy! Favorite! =D

Time really flies.. So fast.. Friday coming soon..

Ciao.