不失徐州, 何得蜀国?
Losing something precious, is part of life. While it is understandable to grieve, it may be a hidden blessing in disguise. I lost many years of my youth, childish with drinking and playing a fool. Now, after a big roundabout, here I am, embarking on a new journey. Stock brokerage, a turning point of my life.
Breaking up with her more than a year ago, is not a bad thing too. Learning to be alone, learning to stand up on my own. I am so much stronger today. It's all her credit.
So, to lose, is always to gain something better in return.
I'm not concerned about those highly educated, high positioned people about my age. While many are walking faster and ahead of me right now, what matter most, is me reaching my destination at the end. Who knows, we may catch up someday?
What is solely important, is me living the life I always wanted.
PS: Friend asked me to join him in dragon boat every Sunday, am considering..
Ciao.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Do you know that..
1. I have fed enough strays to know that kitties actually prefer cheese over milk? Recalled a little experiment i did years back, placing a saucer of HL milk, a piece of wholemeal bread, and cheese. The kitty and kid gobbled up the whole cheese and starred at me. Now i know why Tom always chases after Jerry..
2. I remember writing my first love letter when i was secondary one. She was the first person i glued my eyes to. Long hair, sweet looking, sporty girl. Perhaps i was so in love, i actually walked her home one fine day, staying ten meters behind. I stuffed the little hand written letter into her mail box..
The very next day, as i stepped in the classroom, all eyes were upon me. Apparently, she found the letter really amusing, and decided to share the joy with everyone else. That day onwards, i drunk myself with basketball every single day. I have never wrote a second love letter ever since.
3. I was fourteen when i first clubbed, at 484. And remember that whole stretch of Boat Quay, which were once full of Oriental, Lighthouse, Tapz, Espresso? I recall once i was near Mambo No.5 in the back alley, and saw this group of 'ang mohs' chasing after a chinese teen. Not a few moments later, the 'ang mohs' came running back. A whole horde of guys were behind, chasing with glass bottles. Those were the days..
4. I had my first kiss when she was fifteen. There we were, cuddling in the cold movie theater, laughing and playing with each other, when she suddenly gave me this very deep kiss on my lips. I was stunned. I fell in love..
Years later, i match-made her with an army friend of mine. Things didn't turn out well. I promised to match-make her with another friend of mine these days. Fingers crossed. May she find true happiness.
5. My most embarrassing drunk moment, was during my poly mate's eighteenth birthday. Her then boyfriend booked the whole of Zouk Phuture with free flow of Coronas. There we were all happily drinking and playing, then out of a sudden..
I puked across the table.
6. My first broken heart was when,
一个男孩 爱上一个爱上别人的女孩.
她, 哭到我的心都痛..
7. Army made me fat? After the vigorous training during BMT, the PES-A extremely fit me was posted to a technical school. There, other than learning the repair works of a tank, we eat. After graduating from school and posted to a service unit, i was made the official Operation Specialist. In simple terms, i was only under three person, namely my OC, 2IC, and CSM. The rest of the hundred over specialists and men, were under me. My job scope? Other than doing all the simple plannings for the company, I eat..
8. I have a weak spot for talented girls. She can just write me a song, or play a piano piece, or draw really cute pictures. I'll be smitten..
But i have a softer spot for girls who are physically challenged. Like the deaf girl i knew. She left us all.
9. I have very high sex drive since i was a kid. The culprit was my seven years older brother, whom i shared the same computer with until i was in poly. Shall not elaborate further..
10. I am in love with no one right now..
Here's something to lighten up the evening.
FROG you all! :P
Ciao.
1. I have fed enough strays to know that kitties actually prefer cheese over milk? Recalled a little experiment i did years back, placing a saucer of HL milk, a piece of wholemeal bread, and cheese. The kitty and kid gobbled up the whole cheese and starred at me. Now i know why Tom always chases after Jerry..
2. I remember writing my first love letter when i was secondary one. She was the first person i glued my eyes to. Long hair, sweet looking, sporty girl. Perhaps i was so in love, i actually walked her home one fine day, staying ten meters behind. I stuffed the little hand written letter into her mail box..
The very next day, as i stepped in the classroom, all eyes were upon me. Apparently, she found the letter really amusing, and decided to share the joy with everyone else. That day onwards, i drunk myself with basketball every single day. I have never wrote a second love letter ever since.
3. I was fourteen when i first clubbed, at 484. And remember that whole stretch of Boat Quay, which were once full of Oriental, Lighthouse, Tapz, Espresso? I recall once i was near Mambo No.5 in the back alley, and saw this group of 'ang mohs' chasing after a chinese teen. Not a few moments later, the 'ang mohs' came running back. A whole horde of guys were behind, chasing with glass bottles. Those were the days..
4. I had my first kiss when she was fifteen. There we were, cuddling in the cold movie theater, laughing and playing with each other, when she suddenly gave me this very deep kiss on my lips. I was stunned. I fell in love..
Years later, i match-made her with an army friend of mine. Things didn't turn out well. I promised to match-make her with another friend of mine these days. Fingers crossed. May she find true happiness.
5. My most embarrassing drunk moment, was during my poly mate's eighteenth birthday. Her then boyfriend booked the whole of Zouk Phuture with free flow of Coronas. There we were all happily drinking and playing, then out of a sudden..
I puked across the table.
6. My first broken heart was when,
一个男孩 爱上一个爱上别人的女孩.
她, 哭到我的心都痛..
7. Army made me fat? After the vigorous training during BMT, the PES-A extremely fit me was posted to a technical school. There, other than learning the repair works of a tank, we eat. After graduating from school and posted to a service unit, i was made the official Operation Specialist. In simple terms, i was only under three person, namely my OC, 2IC, and CSM. The rest of the hundred over specialists and men, were under me. My job scope? Other than doing all the simple plannings for the company, I eat..
8. I have a weak spot for talented girls. She can just write me a song, or play a piano piece, or draw really cute pictures. I'll be smitten..
But i have a softer spot for girls who are physically challenged. Like the deaf girl i knew. She left us all.
9. I have very high sex drive since i was a kid. The culprit was my seven years older brother, whom i shared the same computer with until i was in poly. Shall not elaborate further..
10. I am in love with no one right now..
Here's something to lighten up the evening.
FROG you all! :P
Ciao.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
There she was, hugging me from behind..
As i turned my head and met hers, it was a scene that lasted. Angelic face, a faint smile, her eyes fading downwards like she's eyeing a bite on my neck..
"Thank you.."
She must had starred from behind for awhile. There i was, in formal clothing, sitting on a stool washing bowls and plates. Her mom was the owner of a hawker stall, and while her two daughters were busy serving and taking orders, i thought i could help by doing the dishes..
"益荣, 放住啦, 哪里好意思!"
Her mom yelled in frenzy. Slightly plump, her frail hair and wrinkled face seemed to be hiding a story. Though somewhat boorish and rough, i knew her mom fancied me to a certain degree. I was so deeply in love with her daughter, and it was obvious she had already given me her consent..
That very night, as i stood beside her bed, watching her sleep, she held my hand.
"Love you dear.."
I gave her a kiss goodnight..
.
.
.
This was when my alarm rang this morning..
It's torturing..
Either let it come true..
Or stop making me wake up from these..
Here, i wanna repost a video.
Maison Ikkoku.
Watched 10 years ago.
One of the most beautiful stories ever..
Ciao.
As i turned my head and met hers, it was a scene that lasted. Angelic face, a faint smile, her eyes fading downwards like she's eyeing a bite on my neck..
"Thank you.."
She must had starred from behind for awhile. There i was, in formal clothing, sitting on a stool washing bowls and plates. Her mom was the owner of a hawker stall, and while her two daughters were busy serving and taking orders, i thought i could help by doing the dishes..
"益荣, 放住啦, 哪里好意思!"
Her mom yelled in frenzy. Slightly plump, her frail hair and wrinkled face seemed to be hiding a story. Though somewhat boorish and rough, i knew her mom fancied me to a certain degree. I was so deeply in love with her daughter, and it was obvious she had already given me her consent..
That very night, as i stood beside her bed, watching her sleep, she held my hand.
"Love you dear.."
I gave her a kiss goodnight..
.
.
.
This was when my alarm rang this morning..
It's torturing..
Either let it come true..
Or stop making me wake up from these..
Here, i wanna repost a video.
Maison Ikkoku.
Watched 10 years ago.
One of the most beautiful stories ever..
Ciao.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
2012.
The ancient Mayans prophesized a full eclipse in 2009, and it happened. Now, next on the Mayans' list, they suggested a meteor shower or sorts, which signifies the end of civilization. Will it come true as well?
Well, if they are right again, this is how its gonna be like..
Three years is but a short time.
If everything is coming to an abrupt end,
What will you do?
Assuming the catastrophe will definitely occur, it is very depressing for me indeed. 29 years old at most, sanguinely successful with career i hope, perhaps having found the love of my life, the ideas of marriage still far off our minds, which literally means i won't be experiencing the joy of a groom, or the pride of a father..
And i can't be with my partner, till we grow old..
Speaking of which, i just saw 'UP' today.
Such a beautiful story.
Carl and Ellie.
I kinda envy..
And it just irks me even more, utterly infuriated, at how marriages, or even relationships, begin and end these days. I have friends who got into BGRs, for no good reasons, when love is not even present. I have people around me jump into marriages, only to lament months later, laughed and drunk themselves silly..
Sometimes its really funny,
With mixed feelings,
Seeing how people mess up their own life..
Ciao.
The ancient Mayans prophesized a full eclipse in 2009, and it happened. Now, next on the Mayans' list, they suggested a meteor shower or sorts, which signifies the end of civilization. Will it come true as well?
Well, if they are right again, this is how its gonna be like..
Three years is but a short time.
If everything is coming to an abrupt end,
What will you do?
Assuming the catastrophe will definitely occur, it is very depressing for me indeed. 29 years old at most, sanguinely successful with career i hope, perhaps having found the love of my life, the ideas of marriage still far off our minds, which literally means i won't be experiencing the joy of a groom, or the pride of a father..
And i can't be with my partner, till we grow old..
Speaking of which, i just saw 'UP' today.
Such a beautiful story.
Carl and Ellie.
I kinda envy..
And it just irks me even more, utterly infuriated, at how marriages, or even relationships, begin and end these days. I have friends who got into BGRs, for no good reasons, when love is not even present. I have people around me jump into marriages, only to lament months later, laughed and drunk themselves silly..
Sometimes its really funny,
With mixed feelings,
Seeing how people mess up their own life..
Ciao.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Ten things i should have or have not done..
1 ~
Inin. Though she's the one i loved the most, i didn't give her my best, often taking her for granted, and this had became my biggest regret. If only i would persevere right till the end, and not being the first to surrender from our love triangle..
2 ~
I rejected my childhood buddy Qiwei's invitation to Taekwando when we were younger. We could have been good partners, and i could keep my fitness and focus at my peak. It was during poly years, and i thought we were too old to start new. But alas, i should have guessed. It's never too old..
3 ~
There was a night of regret, with a person i couldn't even recall the name. We had fun at the park, at her aunt's place. I left after the shower. I must have shattered her heart completely..
4 ~
Wished i were more mature and self-conscious during my poly years. Three years down the drain achieving nothing but a waste of time. Could have held more part time jobs and complete my Japanese language. Could have done something better to my hair..
5 ~
I still remember the childhood life where me and three sisters play everyday. They're my wonderful neighbours, for a short period. When they shifted away during my primary school days, i was too young to realize. The day they moved, was the day we all lost contact..
6 ~
Shouldn't have taken the $10k loan. Or rather, shouldn't have spent it on worthless reasons and people, and i could have invested the amount for a good return. Its too late..
7 ~
If given a chance to open a steamboat place again, i will definitely personally check the lease. I'm sorry to Ray, that a simple mistake of mine, cost us both $20k..
8 ~
I felt i owe an apology to my poly classmates. We were all so close before, had so much fun. Genting. Hong Kong. But i disappeared, after graduation. When i finally overcame the breakups during army, it was already too late. We had became strangers again..
9 ~
Thinking back, my teachers used to claim i have a knack for arts and music. It's a pity, that i'd long put down my brushes, and gave away my electronic keyboard..
10 ~
The saddest feeling which immerse me right now, is the fact that i'm yet successful with my career, and my mom has to carry on working even though she's already 55..
Ciao.
1 ~
Inin. Though she's the one i loved the most, i didn't give her my best, often taking her for granted, and this had became my biggest regret. If only i would persevere right till the end, and not being the first to surrender from our love triangle..
2 ~
I rejected my childhood buddy Qiwei's invitation to Taekwando when we were younger. We could have been good partners, and i could keep my fitness and focus at my peak. It was during poly years, and i thought we were too old to start new. But alas, i should have guessed. It's never too old..
3 ~
There was a night of regret, with a person i couldn't even recall the name. We had fun at the park, at her aunt's place. I left after the shower. I must have shattered her heart completely..
4 ~
Wished i were more mature and self-conscious during my poly years. Three years down the drain achieving nothing but a waste of time. Could have held more part time jobs and complete my Japanese language. Could have done something better to my hair..
5 ~
I still remember the childhood life where me and three sisters play everyday. They're my wonderful neighbours, for a short period. When they shifted away during my primary school days, i was too young to realize. The day they moved, was the day we all lost contact..
6 ~
Shouldn't have taken the $10k loan. Or rather, shouldn't have spent it on worthless reasons and people, and i could have invested the amount for a good return. Its too late..
7 ~
If given a chance to open a steamboat place again, i will definitely personally check the lease. I'm sorry to Ray, that a simple mistake of mine, cost us both $20k..
8 ~
I felt i owe an apology to my poly classmates. We were all so close before, had so much fun. Genting. Hong Kong. But i disappeared, after graduation. When i finally overcame the breakups during army, it was already too late. We had became strangers again..
9 ~
Thinking back, my teachers used to claim i have a knack for arts and music. It's a pity, that i'd long put down my brushes, and gave away my electronic keyboard..
10 ~
The saddest feeling which immerse me right now, is the fact that i'm yet successful with my career, and my mom has to carry on working even though she's already 55..
Ciao.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Mid Autumn.
Amidst a handful of blissful weddings, lie deaths and falling leaves. Contrastingly, I witnessed three weddings and three funerals in the month of September. There were joy of old pals tying the knot, and the bitterness having acquaintances parting our world..
Such irony.
The Chinese believe in Yin and Yang. It is said all entities are represented by two extremes. When there is good, there will be bad. When there is hope, so will there be despair. The rich and the poor, and the list goes on..
I've seen my fair share of extremes at work. The quiet, and the loud speaker. The patient, and the backstabber. The smiling, and the disgruntled sob. The experienced, and the incompetent. The laborer, and the politician. The innocent, and the evil schemer..
Earning just nine dollars an hour, averaging two days a week, it sure seems a little over?
And of course, in relationships, the famous SNAG and MCP. The dangerous and the settler. The high demander and the low self esteem. The falling in love, and the broken heart..
I wish her all the best.
Moving on, the latest book I borrowed is called 'Gold Trading Boot Camp'. At just page eleven, I am already intrigued by the writer's unique experiences at the trading house. Forty-four chapters later, or three hundred odd pages, I believe and expect to see beyond my own cramped world..
If you're interested in trading (commodities, stocks, bonds, etc), reading charts, analyzing trends, anticipating booms, do grab it at your nearest libraries.
Not posting any clip tonight.
Go take a look at the Full Moon.
Happy Lantern + MoonCake Festival Everyone.
Ciao.
Amidst a handful of blissful weddings, lie deaths and falling leaves. Contrastingly, I witnessed three weddings and three funerals in the month of September. There were joy of old pals tying the knot, and the bitterness having acquaintances parting our world..
Such irony.
The Chinese believe in Yin and Yang. It is said all entities are represented by two extremes. When there is good, there will be bad. When there is hope, so will there be despair. The rich and the poor, and the list goes on..
I've seen my fair share of extremes at work. The quiet, and the loud speaker. The patient, and the backstabber. The smiling, and the disgruntled sob. The experienced, and the incompetent. The laborer, and the politician. The innocent, and the evil schemer..
Earning just nine dollars an hour, averaging two days a week, it sure seems a little over?
And of course, in relationships, the famous SNAG and MCP. The dangerous and the settler. The high demander and the low self esteem. The falling in love, and the broken heart..
I wish her all the best.
Moving on, the latest book I borrowed is called 'Gold Trading Boot Camp'. At just page eleven, I am already intrigued by the writer's unique experiences at the trading house. Forty-four chapters later, or three hundred odd pages, I believe and expect to see beyond my own cramped world..
If you're interested in trading (commodities, stocks, bonds, etc), reading charts, analyzing trends, anticipating booms, do grab it at your nearest libraries.
Not posting any clip tonight.
Go take a look at the Full Moon.
Happy Lantern + MoonCake Festival Everyone.
Ciao.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
I can't love someone i can't Communicate with.
One of the very basic foundation of a lasting relationship, but often neglected. Many chose to go along with feelings, end up in quarrels. Some may last a few years, but without proper communication, all start to fail..
If she doesn't open up, its as good as gone.
As a man, i seriously shouldn't bother with heart matters all the time. There are so many grave issues to tackle, and a distracted mind will only delay the process. And so i've decided, to hell with Love..
Time to be serious.
A stock broking firm wants me to pass M1A and M6 exams. I've put it to thought for awhile, considering the remuneration a remisier gain along the way, with valuable experience and a gateway into the financial world once again. Its my best bet, so far..
Though i'm also considering a full time effort in assisting Ray with his packaging business, which i've failed him personally without proper commitment of my efforts..
Either way, its important i get back on track dealing with what i'm required to accomplish. A career man, is definitely more attractive than a whiner, who always talk about Love..
A nice wedding flick i saw on FB.
One day i'll have a beautiful house,
A wonderful lifelong partner,
And a lovely family..
I vouch for that.
Ciao.
One of the very basic foundation of a lasting relationship, but often neglected. Many chose to go along with feelings, end up in quarrels. Some may last a few years, but without proper communication, all start to fail..
If she doesn't open up, its as good as gone.
As a man, i seriously shouldn't bother with heart matters all the time. There are so many grave issues to tackle, and a distracted mind will only delay the process. And so i've decided, to hell with Love..
Time to be serious.
A stock broking firm wants me to pass M1A and M6 exams. I've put it to thought for awhile, considering the remuneration a remisier gain along the way, with valuable experience and a gateway into the financial world once again. Its my best bet, so far..
Though i'm also considering a full time effort in assisting Ray with his packaging business, which i've failed him personally without proper commitment of my efforts..
Either way, its important i get back on track dealing with what i'm required to accomplish. A career man, is definitely more attractive than a whiner, who always talk about Love..
A nice wedding flick i saw on FB.
One day i'll have a beautiful house,
A wonderful lifelong partner,
And a lovely family..
I vouch for that.
Ciao.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Secret of My Success.
Not all business founders have a silver spoon.
Only a few went Harvard or such.
Some even deep in debts..
61 stories of great names; Bill Gates (Microsoft), Howard Schultz (Starbucks), Toni Mascolo (Tony & Guy), Sir Richard Branson (Virgin Records, and all other Virgin establishments), etc. They are all ordinary people, with extraordinary passion to share.
It is good luck to grab this 2009 edition off the library shelves. I have so far covered three quarters of the book, and am already trembling with adrenaline, having 61 mentors all over the world inspiring with vision and dreams.
I yearn to attain such greatness in near future.
At least I've realized similar traits.
All are self claimed unemployable..
Today is a BIG day for two wonderful person.
A lovely dinner @ Sheraton Towers.
Remy & Alicia's..
Nothing beats watching old friends tying the knot. After such a romantic run of 9 years, so truly inspirational and warm, they are finally walking down the aisle, standing beside the very person they'll love so deeply for life, braving through thick and thin, for eternity..
Here's a lovely wedding clip i digged.
I've always preferred the western style of marriages. A simple meal with the families, the lovely solemnization at the beach, and a fabulous dinner for all friends and relatives, without changing of tux and gowns relating to a fashion display. Best ending with a slow romantic dance, with my one and only..
All the best, newly weds!
Ciao.
Not all business founders have a silver spoon.
Only a few went Harvard or such.
Some even deep in debts..
61 stories of great names; Bill Gates (Microsoft), Howard Schultz (Starbucks), Toni Mascolo (Tony & Guy), Sir Richard Branson (Virgin Records, and all other Virgin establishments), etc. They are all ordinary people, with extraordinary passion to share.
It is good luck to grab this 2009 edition off the library shelves. I have so far covered three quarters of the book, and am already trembling with adrenaline, having 61 mentors all over the world inspiring with vision and dreams.
I yearn to attain such greatness in near future.
At least I've realized similar traits.
All are self claimed unemployable..
Today is a BIG day for two wonderful person.
A lovely dinner @ Sheraton Towers.
Remy & Alicia's..
Nothing beats watching old friends tying the knot. After such a romantic run of 9 years, so truly inspirational and warm, they are finally walking down the aisle, standing beside the very person they'll love so deeply for life, braving through thick and thin, for eternity..
Here's a lovely wedding clip i digged.
I've always preferred the western style of marriages. A simple meal with the families, the lovely solemnization at the beach, and a fabulous dinner for all friends and relatives, without changing of tux and gowns relating to a fashion display. Best ending with a slow romantic dance, with my one and only..
All the best, newly weds!
Ciao.
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