Haven't been in the pink of health recently..
Especially after the recent Sentosa trip. Did night shift the day before, went to the beach straight and had a whole day of fun. If you think i'm crazy, i went for night shift straight after dinner again! Woohoo imagine 48 hours straight without sleep, and a whole day of sweatin and tannin. I was like coolin down my red hot skin in the aircon office the whole night, dozin off every now and then..
Flu and fever came soon after. As i'm typin right now, i'm coughin in my office still. Last night was pretty miserable, tossed and turned in my bed, feverish and throat itchin the whole night. Didn't sleep well at all..
Took doc's med before i came to work, who knows i'm allergic to the stupid runny nose tablets, and my face swell like a pighead! My eyes became blood shot (as usual) and my face was like so hideous. Apparently i'm scarin everyone @ StarHub Haw Par, i seriously hope they won't recognise who i am..
Hate to be sick. Especially without someone by my side. Hope i'll get well soon, so the activities will come soon again..
I wanna go 4 ma lu pray pray..
Have been down on happiness and luck..
Ciao.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Thursday, August 17, 2006
I hurted someone real bad recently..
P, she's been a very special friend of mine for 6 years. Seein her grow up from a sec school little girl to a mature and pretty undergrad, its a kind of fate that brings us together in the first place. She's kind caring and understanding, the kind of sweet girl who deserves a really nice guy. Not me..
Perhaps i treasure our friendship more than anything else, i broke her heart. We really had a great time together, but i simply couldn't commit. The feelin just isn't right. I have made things clear, and hopefully we'll both stop bein so confused anymore..
There's this girl on my mind..
J, though she aren't the exact reason why i didn't accept my friend, but i have fallen deep for this girl. She didn't really gave me a very good 1st impression, but funny how i find out she's actually the one i seek. We just seem to click emotionally, sharin the same kind of feelin towards things. I can feel it whenever she's down or sad, even if she puts on a smile for disguise..
She's in love with her boy.. Though the guy didn't treat her good, she's still so nice towards him, always givin in.. But i'm very sure there'll be a point when she couldn't take it anymore and burst.. I'm not expectin anything.. But when that day comes.. I wish i have the means to look over her and take care of her.. Dote on her the way she have always yearn for.. Even as a friend..
Seein her happy is enough for me.. I guess..
Ciao.
P, she's been a very special friend of mine for 6 years. Seein her grow up from a sec school little girl to a mature and pretty undergrad, its a kind of fate that brings us together in the first place. She's kind caring and understanding, the kind of sweet girl who deserves a really nice guy. Not me..
Perhaps i treasure our friendship more than anything else, i broke her heart. We really had a great time together, but i simply couldn't commit. The feelin just isn't right. I have made things clear, and hopefully we'll both stop bein so confused anymore..
There's this girl on my mind..
J, though she aren't the exact reason why i didn't accept my friend, but i have fallen deep for this girl. She didn't really gave me a very good 1st impression, but funny how i find out she's actually the one i seek. We just seem to click emotionally, sharin the same kind of feelin towards things. I can feel it whenever she's down or sad, even if she puts on a smile for disguise..
She's in love with her boy.. Though the guy didn't treat her good, she's still so nice towards him, always givin in.. But i'm very sure there'll be a point when she couldn't take it anymore and burst.. I'm not expectin anything.. But when that day comes.. I wish i have the means to look over her and take care of her.. Dote on her the way she have always yearn for.. Even as a friend..
Seein her happy is enough for me.. I guess..
Ciao.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Went to The Picturehouse today!
Met up with Phyllis after work, had a stroll around and shared some hotdog and nachos before we headed for 龙虎门..
Other than a typical plot, borin draggy scenes, unsatisfactory ending, its not that bad? Its rather funny sometimes, and omgosh they have nice handphones! Kinda touching when the (sexy) lady died in place of Donnie Yen and he's lying there helplessly looking at her. The floor breaking apart and falling into the water part is very silly though..
What amused me most bout this show is Nicholas doing a ankle smash w/o stuntman! Oh my was rather amazed he's so flexible. The fighting at the beginning were great, my blood boiling watching the moves. Donnie Yen too! I love his moves since a long time ago la =D
There were also some sudden scenes la. Phyllis was excited at 1 of the scenes, she hit me instinctly in my tummy. Good reaction huh..
The ending.. Speechless.. Last boss just die like that.. And abit sian Nicholas and Shawn abit extra.. And Donnie single-handledly finish off the boss.. I accidently laughed out when he mentioned the skill Donnie used was 降龙十八掌.. can't they be more creative..
After the show we went to shop abit. Bought this Adidas black polo tee for 45 bucks. Not sure to be happy or to regret. Mixed feelings. I kinda like it. She mentioned i look nice on it too. Oh well..
Goner do some OT tomorrow 0800-2300. Aug 9th goner be double pay too. Hope i'll get almost 5k paycheck on my next payday. Weeeee..
Ciao.
Met up with Phyllis after work, had a stroll around and shared some hotdog and nachos before we headed for 龙虎门..
Other than a typical plot, borin draggy scenes, unsatisfactory ending, its not that bad? Its rather funny sometimes, and omgosh they have nice handphones! Kinda touching when the (sexy) lady died in place of Donnie Yen and he's lying there helplessly looking at her. The floor breaking apart and falling into the water part is very silly though..
What amused me most bout this show is Nicholas doing a ankle smash w/o stuntman! Oh my was rather amazed he's so flexible. The fighting at the beginning were great, my blood boiling watching the moves. Donnie Yen too! I love his moves since a long time ago la =D
There were also some sudden scenes la. Phyllis was excited at 1 of the scenes, she hit me instinctly in my tummy. Good reaction huh..
The ending.. Speechless.. Last boss just die like that.. And abit sian Nicholas and Shawn abit extra.. And Donnie single-handledly finish off the boss.. I accidently laughed out when he mentioned the skill Donnie used was 降龙十八掌.. can't they be more creative..
After the show we went to shop abit. Bought this Adidas black polo tee for 45 bucks. Not sure to be happy or to regret. Mixed feelings. I kinda like it. She mentioned i look nice on it too. Oh well..
Goner do some OT tomorrow 0800-2300. Aug 9th goner be double pay too. Hope i'll get almost 5k paycheck on my next payday. Weeeee..
Ciao.
Friday, August 04, 2006
Sorry bout the lack of entries recently..
Have been busy with work and flu. Seems like my body is breakin down soon with the frequent changes of workin shifts. Oh my am i really gettin old? Used to be countless sleepless nights before i can really feel the kick, and nowadays its like half a day and i'm damn dozin off already? Oh gosh..
Bein down with flu brings back lotsa memories. How someone will insanely rush back to my place in the middle of school and show me that worried face. How she will change wet towels for me and stayed with me the whole day. Same when she was down with fever and insisted on comin to my place, ended up changin wet towels for her the whole night through till i dozed off. Those are my wonderful memories for keepin.. =]
Realised there isn't anyone who will be worried anymore.. Needless to say changin wet towels..
Have not been in the best of moods. No particular reason, just feelin down. Yeah, the moody quiet me is back. Back to my old cosy shell once again..
Ciao.
Monday, July 24, 2006
I'm so tired!! ARGH..
Sat was my off day, woke up rather early that day, went for a jog. The whole noon i was online browsin through stuff and chattin with KaiLi, until evenin i ran along to Dan's place for mahjong with my colleagues.
We played 10-20cents only, for the kick of it. Dan is the professional leh, he always have his usual game with khakis every weekend. The rest of us are like lambs to the slaughter hahaha. But that night i think my lucky star was shinin brightly in the sky la, i kept winnin and winnin! Made alot of mistakes too, so angry with myself.
This section if for those who know mahjong:
Got 1 game, the moment i open my tiles, wow very red! Only 2 'tong' and 2 'north', the rest are all 'wan zi'! And they're so nicely in order somemore! But i too sucks la, friend threw 'north' early in the game i forgot to 'pong'. Then since i missed out the 3rd 'north' i should throw away my own 'north' and 'tong' tiles, but i didn't! I keep getting '9 wan' but i threw them away! Omgosh i really dunno what i was doing until the game finish without me winnin, and Dan's Gramps was like laughin at me playin that round. Awww felt so paisei and stupid.. *bang wall*
Okay back to the story.
We were supposed to play until 11+ only, Bryan and i workin the next mornin. But then we were like reluctant to stop, so out of spur, we decided to continue! Played 4 rounds straight until almost 7am. Dan and i won! Over 20 bucks each, but we played for the kick of it, so no money was involved la hahaha. After a little wash up Bryan and i took a cab down to work le..
Wow the moment we finished our Mac breakfast, Zzz.. So sleepy! It was only 8am we were like wonderin 'how on earth are we suppose to survive till 5pm!!' The feelin is very high lor, eyes red and watery, starrin at the comp dunno what to surf also. Nearly dozed off a couple of times, immediately knock out durin my 1 hour lunch break lor. Whole day the customers who called in can hear me mumblin la, really really no energy to entertain them at all..
Seriously wished i can head home straight after work la.. But we all agreed to have a game of badminton that evenin! So i went all the way to Jurong and meet up with Dan and company again. I'm the lousiest among us la, even the girls can bully me de. After 3 hours of the game, you can see me dyin already. I didn't really play much la, but ya, tired enough..
After the game Bryan, Qiong and i went Mac for dinner, and we finally head home after that. Was already midnight by the time i reached home la. Had a quick shower, settled my stuff, already 1am+.. As soon i hit my bed, fwah.. Zzz.. K.O Game Over..
Just now woke up with a cramp on my right leg la.. So pain! What a nice way to start my day. Not enough sleep! Am goner head to work soon.. Roar..
Ciao.
Sat was my off day, woke up rather early that day, went for a jog. The whole noon i was online browsin through stuff and chattin with KaiLi, until evenin i ran along to Dan's place for mahjong with my colleagues.
We played 10-20cents only, for the kick of it. Dan is the professional leh, he always have his usual game with khakis every weekend. The rest of us are like lambs to the slaughter hahaha. But that night i think my lucky star was shinin brightly in the sky la, i kept winnin and winnin! Made alot of mistakes too, so angry with myself.
This section if for those who know mahjong:
Got 1 game, the moment i open my tiles, wow very red! Only 2 'tong' and 2 'north', the rest are all 'wan zi'! And they're so nicely in order somemore! But i too sucks la, friend threw 'north' early in the game i forgot to 'pong'. Then since i missed out the 3rd 'north' i should throw away my own 'north' and 'tong' tiles, but i didn't! I keep getting '9 wan' but i threw them away! Omgosh i really dunno what i was doing until the game finish without me winnin, and Dan's Gramps was like laughin at me playin that round. Awww felt so paisei and stupid.. *bang wall*
Okay back to the story.
We were supposed to play until 11+ only, Bryan and i workin the next mornin. But then we were like reluctant to stop, so out of spur, we decided to continue! Played 4 rounds straight until almost 7am. Dan and i won! Over 20 bucks each, but we played for the kick of it, so no money was involved la hahaha. After a little wash up Bryan and i took a cab down to work le..
Wow the moment we finished our Mac breakfast, Zzz.. So sleepy! It was only 8am we were like wonderin 'how on earth are we suppose to survive till 5pm!!' The feelin is very high lor, eyes red and watery, starrin at the comp dunno what to surf also. Nearly dozed off a couple of times, immediately knock out durin my 1 hour lunch break lor. Whole day the customers who called in can hear me mumblin la, really really no energy to entertain them at all..
Seriously wished i can head home straight after work la.. But we all agreed to have a game of badminton that evenin! So i went all the way to Jurong and meet up with Dan and company again. I'm the lousiest among us la, even the girls can bully me de. After 3 hours of the game, you can see me dyin already. I didn't really play much la, but ya, tired enough..
After the game Bryan, Qiong and i went Mac for dinner, and we finally head home after that. Was already midnight by the time i reached home la. Had a quick shower, settled my stuff, already 1am+.. As soon i hit my bed, fwah.. Zzz.. K.O Game Over..
Just now woke up with a cramp on my right leg la.. So pain! What a nice way to start my day. Not enough sleep! Am goner head to work soon.. Roar..
Ciao.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Was shoppin with a friend and we were havin a great time together. Even had Ktv and was havin so much fun. Just before we were bout to head home, there is this little boy who suddenly hugged my leg. Omgosh i swear to God he's so cute! We played with him for awhile, and oh my he loved us so much.
Soon we realised he's actually lost, his parents nowhere to be seen. Brought him to information counter, but nobody came! We were so panicked then, no idea what to do with him sia. In the end we brought him to make a police report, and decided to take him in until his parents come.
Oh my, my mom was so amused at the sight of him la. Furthermore she didn't see my friend before at all, so it was like me suddenly bringing home a woman and a kid! SO FUNNY i tell you. Had a pretty hard time explainin everything. But he's sooooo cute my mom loved him to bits! Soon after he settled down, i send my friend home..
The next day we were out shoppin again! This time we were buying all the babies stuff! Hahaha its so fun la, buyin all the clothes, diapers, toys, etc etc etc! Bwhahahah so fun la. So unforgetable..
Weeks passed but still no news from the parents, we were actually gettin pretty worried. Months passed, and we were gettin so used to boyboy already. The police did tell us his actual name, but i had forgotten already. His parents seems to have fled from Singapore, unable to locate them at all. And finally, we were given a choice to adopt him, or send him to the orphanage..
We were already too attached to him la. Out of spur i even taught him to call me Daddy, and he really did! He even called my friend Mommy, and ya, by then we were already together.. This little boy seems to be like the string of fate between us.. We dont wish to lose him at all..
So we decided to adopt him! We named him Xander 杨天乐! We did all the necessary legal procedures, and he officially became our adopted son! Oh my how blissful things were? I felt so 幸福 can! There was this darlin wife whom we were so loving everyday seems to be like honeymoon. There was cute little 天乐 brought to us by fate whom we love to bits. There was my lovin mom who understands every single thing. What else can i ask for..
Suddenly i heard 徐婕儿 - 我可以忍受 playin on my handphone la. I was lyin on my bed, blanket on the floor, bolster tightly held in my arms. I woke up smilin. WAH LAO..
日有所思，夜有所梦？
(PS: i didn't dream of my father.. but brother was married and stayin elsewhere..)
Soon we realised he's actually lost, his parents nowhere to be seen. Brought him to information counter, but nobody came! We were so panicked then, no idea what to do with him sia. In the end we brought him to make a police report, and decided to take him in until his parents come.
Oh my, my mom was so amused at the sight of him la. Furthermore she didn't see my friend before at all, so it was like me suddenly bringing home a woman and a kid! SO FUNNY i tell you. Had a pretty hard time explainin everything. But he's sooooo cute my mom loved him to bits! Soon after he settled down, i send my friend home..
The next day we were out shoppin again! This time we were buying all the babies stuff! Hahaha its so fun la, buyin all the clothes, diapers, toys, etc etc etc! Bwhahahah so fun la. So unforgetable..
Weeks passed but still no news from the parents, we were actually gettin pretty worried. Months passed, and we were gettin so used to boyboy already. The police did tell us his actual name, but i had forgotten already. His parents seems to have fled from Singapore, unable to locate them at all. And finally, we were given a choice to adopt him, or send him to the orphanage..
We were already too attached to him la. Out of spur i even taught him to call me Daddy, and he really did! He even called my friend Mommy, and ya, by then we were already together.. This little boy seems to be like the string of fate between us.. We dont wish to lose him at all..
So we decided to adopt him! We named him Xander 杨天乐! We did all the necessary legal procedures, and he officially became our adopted son! Oh my how blissful things were? I felt so 幸福 can! There was this darlin wife whom we were so loving everyday seems to be like honeymoon. There was cute little 天乐 brought to us by fate whom we love to bits. There was my lovin mom who understands every single thing. What else can i ask for..
Suddenly i heard 徐婕儿 - 我可以忍受 playin on my handphone la. I was lyin on my bed, blanket on the floor, bolster tightly held in my arms. I woke up smilin. WAH LAO..
日有所思，夜有所梦？
(PS: i didn't dream of my father.. but brother was married and stayin elsewhere..)
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Realised i havent been bloggin for almost 10 days. Have been busy. Nothing much, just work, bowlin, ktv, mahjong, movies, dinner, shoppin, camp, friends, buddies, meetings, and stuff..
KaiLi is going Bintan in a few hours' time! Oh my i goner miss her.. Pray her fever will be long gone before she can even board the ferry later.. Takecare!! >.<
My colleagues are a bunch of crazy folks. I'm only a few weeks old @ my workplace but we're already so mixed and fun together. Omgosh so many of them are good singers, makes me feel so tiny @ ktv hahaha. Just had mahjong awhile ago, and unlucky me lost to all 3.. Geez..
Am headin to a funeral tomorrow morning, colleague's dad suddenly passed away. That night we were still smilin and laughin, even wanted to go Dbl-O but i pulled out in the end. Who knows the very next day this would happen..
Life is so fragile can? Few mornins back i was smsin my friend bout this lady who met mishap at the junction near my place. Were on my way to work and the next thing i realised was her lyin on the road. Few of us helped out ursherin the cars away, while the driver was checkin on her until the ambulance came. Its quite sad how SO MANY people can look mercilessly @ us like monkeys in the zoo. Never help never mind, why keep starin? What, are we puttin up a performance or somethin? Cb.. Really made me feel like scoldin vulgar..
Seriously.. 人生短短几十年..
没有人会知道自己几时走..
要就珍惜现在.. 想做得就去做..
不要再浪费自己的生命和时间..
如果经历一点挫折就放弃..
吃了一点苦头就自暴自弃..
那就去死好了没人会理你..
更凄惨的人多的是..
想活下来的人多的是..
你活着简直是浪费..
Hahahaha ok maybe i'm too harsh with that. But it hurts to see friends giving up life so easily. Especially when the hiccups they had are such mediocre stuff compared to so many. They love to complain bout how bad things are. Once or twice is still alright, but endless whining and yet not doing anything bout it, what good can it bring? It really get on my nerves some times..
I may sound depressed at times, always talkin bout sad stuff, but that is me. I love sad songs. I watch sad shows. You can say its a god damn sick fetish. But at least i'm never a person who can't move on. I dont brood over spilled milk. So those who never seem to understand this part of me at all, maybe now you'll catch a glimpse..
It really aches my heart seein dear friends drownin in sorrow. They're like birds who hurted their wings, though healed, yet not wantin to soar the sky anymore. Please, you won't wanna get stuck on the ground for the rest of your life. You won't wanna starve to death. Fly, and there'll be freedom and life on the other skies. And you'll never be alone, we'll all be flyin side by side..
4am soon, i better have my rest.
Ciao.
KaiLi is going Bintan in a few hours' time! Oh my i goner miss her.. Pray her fever will be long gone before she can even board the ferry later.. Takecare!! >.<
My colleagues are a bunch of crazy folks. I'm only a few weeks old @ my workplace but we're already so mixed and fun together. Omgosh so many of them are good singers, makes me feel so tiny @ ktv hahaha. Just had mahjong awhile ago, and unlucky me lost to all 3.. Geez..
Am headin to a funeral tomorrow morning, colleague's dad suddenly passed away. That night we were still smilin and laughin, even wanted to go Dbl-O but i pulled out in the end. Who knows the very next day this would happen..
Life is so fragile can? Few mornins back i was smsin my friend bout this lady who met mishap at the junction near my place. Were on my way to work and the next thing i realised was her lyin on the road. Few of us helped out ursherin the cars away, while the driver was checkin on her until the ambulance came. Its quite sad how SO MANY people can look mercilessly @ us like monkeys in the zoo. Never help never mind, why keep starin? What, are we puttin up a performance or somethin? Cb.. Really made me feel like scoldin vulgar..
Seriously.. 人生短短几十年..
没有人会知道自己几时走..
要就珍惜现在.. 想做得就去做..
不要再浪费自己的生命和时间..
如果经历一点挫折就放弃..
吃了一点苦头就自暴自弃..
那就去死好了没人会理你..
更凄惨的人多的是..
想活下来的人多的是..
你活着简直是浪费..
Hahahaha ok maybe i'm too harsh with that. But it hurts to see friends giving up life so easily. Especially when the hiccups they had are such mediocre stuff compared to so many. They love to complain bout how bad things are. Once or twice is still alright, but endless whining and yet not doing anything bout it, what good can it bring? It really get on my nerves some times..
I may sound depressed at times, always talkin bout sad stuff, but that is me. I love sad songs. I watch sad shows. You can say its a god damn sick fetish. But at least i'm never a person who can't move on. I dont brood over spilled milk. So those who never seem to understand this part of me at all, maybe now you'll catch a glimpse..
It really aches my heart seein dear friends drownin in sorrow. They're like birds who hurted their wings, though healed, yet not wantin to soar the sky anymore. Please, you won't wanna get stuck on the ground for the rest of your life. You won't wanna starve to death. Fly, and there'll be freedom and life on the other skies. And you'll never be alone, we'll all be flyin side by side..
4am soon, i better have my rest.
Ciao.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Life is easy, life is hard.
Time is short, time is fast.
Relationships are simple, yet are not.
In life things you cherish doesnt mean it wont leave you, things you love the most doesnt mean you wont lose it. But in life one thing about the beauty of it is to learn to give your best, so when looking back you wont say "I wish i had done better, I've made a mistake."
We learn through relationship, we learn through hurting the ones we love most. We know its wrong yet emotions got the better of us, but admitting whats wrong and loving each other more is whats more important.
Things broken can be mended, but will never be the same pieces again. There are still times when you must learn how to let go and move on. Cause spinning around and around, hanging here and there, though you might not choose to believe in the fact, it still doesnt get you anywhere.
Just believe in what you choose, who you love, be who you wanna be, and love the ones who loves you. There are nights that makes you feel lonely and wanting company, having only the dark sky to gaze endlessly upon. But when the sun rises, warmth brings hope and makes us feel happy and a new day begins again.
Anyway, who says being human is easy in the first place.
Ciao.
Time is short, time is fast.
Relationships are simple, yet are not.
In life things you cherish doesnt mean it wont leave you, things you love the most doesnt mean you wont lose it. But in life one thing about the beauty of it is to learn to give your best, so when looking back you wont say "I wish i had done better, I've made a mistake."
We learn through relationship, we learn through hurting the ones we love most. We know its wrong yet emotions got the better of us, but admitting whats wrong and loving each other more is whats more important.
Things broken can be mended, but will never be the same pieces again. There are still times when you must learn how to let go and move on. Cause spinning around and around, hanging here and there, though you might not choose to believe in the fact, it still doesnt get you anywhere.
Just believe in what you choose, who you love, be who you wanna be, and love the ones who loves you. There are nights that makes you feel lonely and wanting company, having only the dark sky to gaze endlessly upon. But when the sun rises, warmth brings hope and makes us feel happy and a new day begins again.
Anyway, who says being human is easy in the first place.
Ciao.
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