Once again, been pretty busy..

Work had been taxin last 2 weeks. Just settled 6 consecutive days of noon shifts, and was sloggin another 5 days before last sunday. So it was like 11 days and only 1 off in between? But hey, i'm havin my long weekend! Sun and Mon goner be fun` =D

Goner be jobless soon though. My dept is closin end of Jan 07, and i'm not plannin to shift. My records aren't pretty in the 1st place. So i guess its time to move on..

Lobangs anyone?

Been brain stormin nowadays, came up with few pretty neat ideas. Definitely workable, but, am a total stranger in the field. But where am i goner find success without even venturin? Shall work on my pen and paper and expect some actions soon..

Early xmas present from MissTan, once again surprised me with another big parcel and packet of heart candies. Thanks alot mate, truely appreciates it. But hope you aren't expectin anythin BIG in return! Hohoho` =P

Everybody's askin why i didn't mention a darn bit bout my SO. Oh well. The very last time we crossed road was like 3 years before. Feelins were lingerin ever since, never once forgotten. Yup, like a few of my pals who already knew, she is someone from my past. So now, 3 years later, she came back, and i'm really hopin things will work. Its goner be like a dream comin true. As crazy as it goes, its goner be a fairytale if so..

Yet i fear everything will just burst like bubble..

I was never the confident guy. Not after all the shit i'd crawled through in my life. I really like her i swear, but there's this feelin of uneasiness i have. I'm always the kamikaze type, going all out with everything i got. Always blowin myself up to bits..

That explains why i always sucks @ Bomber Man?

A nice song to share with you.
Listen with the lyrics and you'll understand.

张敬轩/王菀之 - 随你

之：
一個人的回憶
原來可以填滿空虛的心靈
你的快樂可以
燃亮我暗淡的日子
只要你喜歡就可以
我不管理智不理智
今天開始不再一起數星星

之：
一個人的委屈
原來可以換兩個人的幸福
(軒：我還愛你)

之：
我的離開可以
為你鋪張新的道路
(軒：和你一起)

之：
只要你喜歡就可以
我不理會我自己
(軒：她和你)

之：
今天開始她和你永不分離
(軒：無法相比)

之：
愛兩個人很深愛
再多就太無奈
(軒：曾經我們是如此的深愛)

之：
記得你說
兩個人都可愛
你想得太精彩
(軒：朝夕互相依賴)

之：
如果我不能將你整個擁入懷
(軒：怎可能就此離開)

之：
情願你全心接受她的愛
(軒：彼此都受傷害)

之：
讓我抱著我自己一個發呆

軒：
我跟她是誤會
愛你的心從沒有一刻偏移
真愛不說道理
只說明我的心意

之：
只要你喜歡就可以
我習慣沒有我自己
陽光和空氣你全部帶走
(軒：我根本不會走)

之：
我們就此分手
(軒：不要就此分手)

之：
只可惜愛
兩個人變無奈
再拖只有悲哀
(軒：怎麼不相信我全心為你)

之：
既然你說
兩個人都可愛
乾脆與她精彩
(軒：看著我的眼睛還那麼在乎你)

之：
如果我不能將你整個擁入懷
(軒：不想失去你的溫柔)

之：
情願你全心接受她的愛
(軒：不准你說要走就走)

之：
愛到白頭

軒：
一生一世手牽手

之：
時間跟眼淚溜走

之：
我獨自承受
(軒：別走)

之：
兩個人的愛情
原來不一定要美麗的結局
一個人在這裡

軒/之：
靜靜的回憶

After all these years of missing her wondering if she's fine..

Now she's back in my life..

And i know if i let her slip away again this time i'll regret for life..

We aren't sure of our future but at least now there's a chance to try..

Nobody can replace her in my heart don't ask me why..

She's my one and only BaoBei for sure our feelins had never died..

You're like a beautifully crafted vessel, like a shinin pearl in the wild Mediterranean.

Heavy storm gathered and the waves rough, your delicate hull couldn't withstand the bad weather.

Bruised and battled you drifted, cried out in joy when a harbour was finally sighted.

Repairs were almost immediate, healin both your heart and your soul.

In no time, you were a perfect masterpiece again.

.
.
.

And settin sail once more, would only be a matter of time..

Bored as usual..
In my office..
11pm to 8am..

Realised i haven been to any movies since my last show 'DeathNote'. Gave a thought bout what i wanna watch nowadays.

- Sinkin of Japan
- The Prestige
- The Departed
- Silk

Anybody's interested?
1st come 1st serve` =P

Ciao.

I just wanna ask one question..

There are some friends you're eager to meet up. Yet they can tell you they're too busy, its hard to promise?

1 week 7 days.
5 days workin 8 hours.
2 days free.

Is it really that difficult to spare 2 hours for a meal?

I'm really very dissappointed..

I treated them as friends.. Did they?

Fine..
I told myself..
Fine..

I've given some serious thoughts while workin hard not to fall asleep in office..

The TOP 10 individuals i wanna sing Ktv with right now:

1. 吴小姐! Its so difficult to get you out! =/
2. MissTan! Always wanted to hear her sing!
3. JingWen, but i doubt she can..
4. Nelson, my cousin whom i haven seen for months since he's botak..
5. Alicia, my dear friend, haven seen for months too..
6. Keng, kinda miss the crazy 80+ song list LOL.
7. Janice, wow how long was it since our last K with Nelson?
8. Gelynn, wow even longer since we last sung?
9. Michael, he says he sings like 曹格 -.-"
10. Silvia and co, i promised a treat after her papers. =]

Its really very obvious.. That i really have nothin better to do.. Lol..

Ciao.

Last night was J's birthday..

And we had a crazy time! That included all the cake throwin, eggs smashin, flour pourin, bwahhahahahha! But ya, not forgettin the police chasin, I.C copyin, area cleanin, Zzz..

But what matter most is the birthday girl really enjoyed herself! =D

We actually ambushed @ her workplace in the beginning. Everyone acted to be 'busy' or 'had plans' when she ask some of us out for supper (she didn't jio me though..). So disappointedly someone thought she was going to be alone for the night. But hey when the lift door opened, there was this very nice birthday cake right in front of her! And everyone was singing Happy Birthday haha. The smile of her face at that moment, really unforgetable..

After the surprise we made our way to 1 of the HDB blocks near to her place and started our showdown hehe..

Anyway by the time i reached home it was already 5am. So after i took a bath and bummed around for awhile, off i went for work. Correct, right now 'm typin in the office yawnin away..

What i really need now is a nice warm cup of fragrant aromatic COFFEE..

Ciao.

Even Xx is headin Melbourne for good..
End of 2007..
Though happy for her..
But why must everyone be leavin me..

I'm typin away in my office right now..

Recently things have been too crazy for me to ignore. Too much to type. And i couldn't be bothered. Just that my mood have been too low for me to do anything. Everything seem so meaningless and pointless till the fact i don't even feel like headin out with my colleauges anymore..

I even bashed up someone badly few days back.. But he truefully deserves it.. For what he had done to my friend..

No matter how much i can remember bout what Charis told me, i still can't make my days happy. I keep tellin people to takecare and cheerup, but i can't even pass my own stage. There's just nothin for me to be happy bout. I felt that i've really let Charis down..

What have happened to me? Because of what happened in the past, have i changed so much? Where was the cheerful me durin poly years? Where was the happy go lucky Alan that used to be surrounded by so many friends? Were all those nothin but illusions?

For every one i have told my past to, other than those 'wow' reactions who mentioned the word 'dramatic', which few can really feel the pain i went through durin the ordeal? Who can really understand the aftermath i have gone through all those years durin my army life? For those whom i told bout me bein a Pes A clerk, how many truely understand the reason behind?

How many in this world truely understood me? MinMin? Jacq? Inin doesn't understood me at all durin our time together, though i was really happy with her. Even mom doesn't understand me well though we've gone through thick and thin for 23years. So who's next?

I'm not broodin over my past..
I'm just sad at the fact..
I've changed so much..
And nobody understands me anymore..
I'm full of moodswings and temper nowadays..
Stay away..

Maybe i'll just stop whinin soon..

Ciao.

Recently uploaded ALOT of photos to my friendster.

Free go take a look lor.

http://www.friendster.com/zuko

Nan de i will take pics.. haha`

Ciao.