Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease.

For some unknown reasons, the nerve cells in the cerebellum are slowly degenerating. As time passes, the body will cease to move freely. Soon, you won't be able to stand and will require the use of a wheelchair. It will then be difficult to write and talk. Eventually, activities are totally restricted. And you will fall asleep one fine day, never to wake up again.

How will you feel, if you have this disease?
Will you still look forward to the future?
Will you break down and lost all hopes?
Will you be able to accept the cruel fact?
Will you still be able to smile?

Humans usually don't appreciate things until all became too late. Unknown to many, there are a few unlucky ones struggling to cherish. Fate have played a cruel joke on them, giving too little time to fulfill too many wish. They have no one to blame for their limited life, maybe only God if there is any. Not only they aren't able to have a normal life, to be a burden to their love ones, to be discriminated by all others, to have all dreams shattered, to have no future, living on is simply too heart breaking. Yet, to live on is the only wish that they will ever wish for, even if its only 1 day more..

When was the last time i watched a jap drama and had my eyes sore red? That would be almost 5 years ago. I could still remember i was so touched that tears just came down by itself. Today, i finished all 11 episodes of a new jap drama. Never had i ever cried my heart out watching a show. To be honest, i really lost count how many times my tears flowed. Thanks to the show, my eyes are super puffy and swollen right now. Perhaps its like the title of the show, i had cried "1 Litre of Tears"..

Humans have declared the 7 Wonders of the World. But haven't all of us overlooked the simplest things? Isn't being able to move a wonder? Isn't being able to talk a wonder? Isn't being able to think and feel, a wonder? To me, to be able to feel is the most wonderful thing. It gives me alot of thoughts. It tells me alot of things. It even showed me miracles..

Some people tell me i'm emotional, and i am proud of it. To live on in this world without feelings, that will be very sad indeed.

Ciao.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

人的一生就如一部戏。

有开头,有结尾。
有朋友,有敌人。
有喜怒,有哀乐。
有爱情,也有憎恨。

我们写着自己的剧本,
控制着自己的一生。
拍好自己想拍的故事,
拍完了才后悔已经太迟。
结尾是喜剧还是悲剧,
就由我们自己来决定。

有一天,
会有人欣赏我的剧本,
陪着我一起拍完这一部喜剧。

Monday, May 22, 2006

Yesterday was my Mom's birthday and OMG i had totally forgotten about it!

How bad can i be? *slap myself* Tried to make up by buying dinner but thats definitely not enough. So i smsed my bro hoping he can make up to her somehow, and i was correct, he didn't remember Mom's bday as well. (Oh my, Mom has 2 shitty sons to worry about..) He bought her some korean drama VCDs (that idea came from me..) and Mom was happy. Easily satisfied don't you think so? I love my Mom..

Mommy Happy Birthday ^^

Ciao.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Received an email today and thought of blogging about it.

Interesting Facts.

1. If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

(Hardly seems worth it.)


2. If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.

(Now thats more like it.)


3. The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.

(OMG!!!)


4. A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.

(In my next life, i want to be a pig.)


5. A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.)

(I'm still not over with the pig.)


6. Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories a hour.

(Don't try this at home, maybe in your office.)


7. The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.

("Honey, i'm home. What the.....?!")


8. The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.

(30 mins..lucky pig! Can you imagine?)


9. The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.

(What can be so tasty on the bottom of the pond?)


10. Some lions mate over 50 times a day.

(I still want to be a pig in my next life. Quality over Quantity!)


11. Butterflies taste with their feet.

(Something i always wanted to know.)


12. The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.

(Hmmmmmmmm...............)


13. Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.

(What about both handed? Do they split the difference?)


14. Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump.

(Ok, this would be a good thing.)


15. An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.

(I know some people like that.)


16. Starfish have no brains.

(I know some people like that too.)


17. Polar bears are left-handed.

(If they switched, they will live alot more longer.)


18. Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.

(What about that pig??)

Friday, May 12, 2006

When i saw MI3 last week, i thought it was a pretty action-packed movie. But after watching Poseidon last night, my opinions changed totally. From the very 1st min the wave crashed till the choppers came at the end, i was immersed with fear and adreanaline. The whole escape is so exciting that i couldn't stop thinking and pondering. A whole freaking big cruise boat sunk and only so few survived. Damn tragic. Go catch the show, 2 thumbs up.

18th goner be Da Vinci Code, 19th is Over The Hedge, while 25th shall be X-Men 3. Goner be a month of eye opening shows.

Was having soccer on Tues night when i unintentionally overstretched my left thigh. It still hurts now, can't jog nowadays. Most prob Sunday goner be another game hope i'll be good in time.

Been staying home these 2 days watching VCDs. This korean drama(KD) that i had watched, 'Hao Jie Chun Xiang', is one of my favourites so far. Sweet romance, sad life, touching love, happy ending. A far cry from those dying and crying scenes most other KDs have.

Cheng Chun-Hyang is a sweet, intelligent and talented high school student. Without her father around since the age of 2, she and her mom worked hard to make ends meet and had a happy life together. Having Korea National University as her main goal in life, she worked really hard and always get fantastic results. Life is pretty good until..

One day she met Lee Meng-Long, son of a respected police superintendent, but also a rascal who is always into fights and troubles. With a little twist of fate, they ended up having to marry each other without really any love in between..

As time goes by, feelings start to grow. But just when things are getting ripe, 2 person stepped into their love life and tried all means and ways to seperate them. They did succeed, but their love will never die..

I love the way the couple love each other. So sweet, so cute. And the way a person can sacrifise everything unselfishly for their love ones, it is amazing and something i'm envious and jealous of. No matter how painful it hurts to protect, they will do so. Just the kind of love that i seek. Or maybe, everybody else too..

Perhaps all the girls i had met me are like Chai-Ling, someone that Meng-Long likes at the beginning, yet no real feelings in between. Not those 'i will die for you' kind of feelings. In our real world right now, love is like so cheap. You can get it anywhere anytime, but you will feel that something important is missing. Everybody no longer know or understand what real love is anymore..

I'll wait for my Chun-Hyang, no matter how long it takes..

Sarang heyo..
Sarang hagei..

Ciao.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Yo.

Woke up early in the morning for soccer today. Never had a game since donkey years ago? My legs aren't listening to me now and i nearly need an ambulance for cab. i'm so very exhausted right now and might just doze off typing this halfway.. Zzz..

Brought mom to Marina for steamboat yesterday! Supposed to be Mother's Day celebration even though its not the exact date. Anyway apparently it was her 1st time and everything's pretty funny. Though it was damn crowded and smokey but i guess everyone in the family enjoyed themselves.















My cute mom who didn't know she's caught on camera.















Neighbour's steamboat caught fire, no idea how they did that.















A scene taken outside my window. Guess dusk or dawn?




Taken by Xx at a junction in town weeks back. Lotsa TPs.

Recently got to know many of my cousin's friends. They are all nice people, but someone caught my attention. He is a good friend i can tell, but cousin told me many stories about him, he and his love stories. Apparently he is someone who keep changing gfs. The impression his stories gave me was he's just trying to enjoy himself with them. Most guys behave the same, i believe. But for his case, the girls just keep flocking to him, even though they know his expenditures. He's neither suave nor cool, but i guess there must be some factors. Well i'm not close to him so i'm not supposed to judge, but if things are true, then something must be very wrong..

Yeah i'll be meeting Charis soon next week. She's such a busy girl, have to set date beforehand. But i'm glad she didn't forget me and will still spend time getting me out. Looking forward. =]

Its the Euro Champ Final!
ARse vs Barca.
Big head vs Buck teeth.
Who will prevail?

I shall find out tonight.

Ciao.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Went Partyworld yesterday.

Met up with Elaine and GB in the noon and we sang at Clementi. Had a great time singing new songs, and trying those I had never attempt before. Enjoyed singing duets with Elaine. But perhaps I might have sung a little too many songs, the duo did'
t sing much. Can see Elaine was tired, and GB didn't really want to sing. Oh well..

Sadly, after the singing we went our own separate ways. GB went home to study, and Elaine went home for dinner. I wanted to meet up with Charis, been long since I last met her, but she's tired. Hope I'
ll meet up with Charis soon. Sweet girl. Anyway I met up with Xx instead at Bishan. We had Café Cartel, a little shopping after that, and she went to meet her friends at the end. Sigh..

Really wondering how she is doing nowadays. Missed her..

Recently saw The Wild. Hey, it's a damn funny show! Can't compare to Ice Age 2 definitely, but I dare say it is the 2nd funniest! Especially that stupid koala bear! Go catch it man lol. By the way I watched 2 shows today, Hitch and Cinderella Man. Both are nice, if you haven't watch it yet, do get the VCDs? Can always get me to burn for you too.

I sound a little monotonous today. Well, it has been a boring day.

Ciao.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Yo.

No inspiration to blog recently, mind occupied by many other stuff. Life is a little topsy turvy nowadays, woke up at night and sleeping in the morning. Feels like holidays again.

Went swimming days back. Realised I’m still pretty noob in the water. Most prob I won’t drown, but my free style won’t take me anywhere either. Had a good time in the sun though, skin are shedding now. Have been wanting to get a good tan. Maybe I’ll go again soon.

Watched Eight Below few nights ago. A nice touching show worth 8 bucks, especially if you’re an animal lover. The huskies are beauties I tell you, make me wanna have my own. Though the plot is simple, but there are scenes your heart will miss a beat. Go catch it, I recommend it.

Most prob will be having another ktv session with cousin later. Its fun when you’re with 1 or 2 close friends trying out songs you had never sung before. I love singing, even though I’m not David Tao nor Jay Chow. Many say I sing like Zhang Yu, not sure if that’s a compliment though. Bah.

Speaking of cousin, he is finally going to serve the nation. June is drawing near, any last wishes? Bwahahahaha *evil laugh* =P

To be honest I was pretty worried how is life goner be like when I was about to serve NS. Except for those ‘knock it down!’ and ‘sign extra!’, it turns out to be pretty fun. Though something drastic happened to me during BMT, I did enjoy myself for the rest of the time. My close friends should know, bout my dramatic breakup and stuff. Those 3 months held the most painful memories of my life. Nonetheless I got over it, and ya, felt like I had gone through hell and back again.

I still wish Min well, may her have all the happiness she sought, and the marriage be a blissful journey for both.

Days back when Xx asked me if I had ever chatted with someone on the phone till either one of us fall asleep, I recalled a lot of things. There’s only one person I had ever did that with. Chatted till so tired but yet unwilling to hang up. That was how sweet things were in the past. If only.. =]

曾经把爱想得太简单,

以为只要我存在就能让你取暖。

OMG! Rainny is back in Singapore!
*~*~WELCOME HOME~*~*

Don’t know why but I felt sad when you flew off last time. How I wish you’ll stay for good this time. Remember our promise, we will meet up someday..

Gosh, written so much tonight and I were complaining that I had no inspiration. -.-“

Ciao.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Been slacking..

Hanging around with my cousins nowadays. Went kbox today, tried a lot of songs that I have never thought of attempting before. A whole noon of off tunes and cracking glass. Realised my cousin improved in singing.

I really love sad songs..

Speaking of ktv, I am sad. Supposed to meet up with a few sec sch friends for singing this Thursday, but someone aeroplaned. Ditched us for a pair of free tickets to a sneak preview, how worse can things be? It hurts. I am not angry, just disappointed.

Totally..

人生是什么?
快乐和幸福又是什么?
是金钱?还是感情?
是朋友?还是爱情?
是活得精彩?还是活得开心?
是活得自由?还是活得有意义?

悲伤的事一个接一个,会快乐吗?
想得到的得不到,会幸福吗?
我有钱,也没人分享。
感情丰富,但没人欣赏。
朋友再多,也没人理会。
想谈恋爱,但没人了解。
23年的光阴平淡无乏,充满悲伤。
拥有的自由有限,毫无意义。

不去想,别人会说我缺乏远见。
想太多,别人又说我想法另类。
是天意弄人?
还是自食其果?


Think I�m too chim tonight. Just a sudden flow of thoughts. I really need a break from everything. I really need to go on a trip to sort out my feelings.

Recently I�m admiring a girl. She�s 22 years old, very talented, very demure. Its not the cuteness of her image, but the way she bring herself. A long tough route she had walked, a great success she deserves. I sincerely pray she�ll be blessed with happiness, and the days she spend in joy. Her name is Rainny杨丞琳.

Ciao.

Monday, April 03, 2006

Once again it has been a few days.

Recently met up with my sec school classmates for dinner. Remember the stingray I praised during previous entries? We had a feast there. It is very fun to meet up after a whole 7 years, chatting and joking about the past and stuff. Lotsa gossips lol managed to find out lotsa stuff we didn�t get to know last time. Memories.

Everyone seems to be fine. But deep inside I saw troubles in their hearts. Shall not mention who in particular, they should know who they are. I�m not a guru in heart matters, but I guess I just knew. Sincerely hope everyone will do well for years to come, and we will be able to meet up all the time.

7 years ago I used to have feelings for someone. I can still remember the pager songs, the messages, the CD, etc. I had a heartbreak during that time. 7 years later the feelings still linger, and meeting up triggers it every time. Now everyone have their own life, and I just care for everyone, just her more.

Some asked about Miss Tan, how is it going and stuff. I can only say it is just a feeling of mine, it came, and I responded to it. But I didn�t take initiative and I wasn�t convinced at all. To me, it takes 2 hands to clap, and when I am denied of answers I seek, I believe nothing is going to happen. It is a chore to love and care and hurt myself in the process. So I have decided to let go, and like the heart candies, it will fade away day by day.

Maybe I�m just a person with too many feelings.

I might be taking a trip to Taiwan soon, going for a stroll and breather. Thanks government for the 900bucks, though I had already donated 100bucks to Chen Su Lan Chidlren�s Home. The remaining 800bucks will do me good overseas.

I�ll post again soon.

Ciao.