Time to introduce my blog's theme!



Serendipity.
'A fortunate accident'
Isn't it such a lovely word?

Nope, this is not a new show, 8 years old, but i still heart it lotsa. Its a crazy story bout 2 strangers met up by Chance, havin such strong chemistry and yearnin for each other, but both attached in reality and belonged to different worlds. They let Fate decides, by doin alot of uncommon things to challenge their Destiny, only to get seperated. But things never ended that night..

I love the part where Sara challenged John to take different elevators and choose a storey of their fancy, to see if they'll still meet up by Fate. Both chose my favorite number, 23..

I'm not goin to be a spoiler, catch the show yourself.
Its a MUST-SEE, kay?
99% of you people readin my blog will love it!
1% most prob bein GUYS, lol..

There's somethin i've been lookin for a very long time.

A small treasure box,
That can only be opened with 2 keys.

Imagine, with it i can keep all the memories and happiness with my sweetheart, only to be opened when both of us wanted. We can even keep individual secrets, only to surface years down the road, when we think its time to let each other know. It'll be like a little time capsule, within lies all the monuments of our love..

That is,
If i found the box, and
If i found someone worthy..

Anyway.

This is 1 of my MUST-SING song in ktv.
Meaningful lyrics.
Thought i should share.

你忘不了开始的甜蜜
却怕想起未来的情景
他是会认错的听你哭泣
直到下次又不小心忘记

你解释着孤寂和无力
他却相信那只是情绪
当埋怨都变得没有意义
你想留住的是什么东西

离开爱过的人和回忆
怎能不挣札不痛心
但是一个最难的决定
往往是最好的决定

让懂你的人爱你
重选一份值得坚持的感情
爱只要有一点点冲动就可以
了解却少些默契都不行

让懂你的人爱你
别舍不得过去只为了可惜
相爱不只是进去对方的生活
更要能走入彼此的生命

Ciao.

巨蟹座终极完美分析

巨蟹是心软的，容易被感动，即使表面看起来总是有一副硬硬的壳，但那壳子底下是一颗柔软敏感到极至的内心。它们面对一份感情是犹豫再三的，不要说它们懦弱，它们只是明白自己是容易受伤的。他们对感情抱有信仰，相信纯真、相信天长地久，所以有时是挑剔的。这是一层表面坚硬的壳，其实攻克轻而易举，因为蟹蟹有一颗柔软的心。

蟹蟹恋爱了，这时的它们变的很粘人，很婆妈，因为你是它的中心，它会为你考虑很多，饭吃了吗？天气会变了吗？记得带伞哦！路上车多，慢点走哦！……..诸如此类！

蟹蟹是深情而痴情的，爱上一个人会爱的很深，即使明知道没有结果也很难自拔。这是巨蟹的一种固执，想要得到的东西，往往不会轻易放手。有时，一段没有结果的恋情会成为蟹蟹的生活重心。这无疑是痛苦的，但又难以自拔。然而，巨蟹的不安全感又在内心大叫着放弃，所以这时的蟹蟹总是在坚持和放弃的巨大矛盾中苦苦煎熬着。

学会放弃是蟹蟹的一门功课。当然，如果蟹蟹真的决定放弃了，它的坚决会让所有人吃惊。要记住：除了你自己，没有人可以伤害到你

蟹子是痴情的，但又不善于表达，面对自己心爱的人拘谨、放不开。它们的幽默感此刻变得生涩。

蟹子是深情的，但又不善于把握，为什么一次次控制不住自己的情绪，说出明知不该讲的话？

分裂而善于幻想的寄居蟹在说巨蟹之前，先说说几个一直以来欣赏的几个偶像，他们都不同，但他们有一个共同点，就是，他们都是巨蟹男。

周星驰，王家卫，罗大佑，李宗盛，梁朝伟，张学友……一般在每次排行榜中总是靠末的巨蟹们，看起来并没有很明显的个性，但是，他们在艺术方面的直觉和敏锐却是别人难以匹敌，从这几个人名里就不难看出。他们在生活中都是温文尔雅的，被动的，甚至往往是沉默的，但是在他们的电影，歌曲中，却展露出令人惊异的才华，让我们总是不由自主的为之倾倒。当周星驰让我们笑得泪水横流的时候，我们也早听闻其实戏外的他认真严肃，不苟言笑，对待朋友和情人都很苛刻；我们知道在戏里演什么都神形毕似的影帝梁朝伟同性格南辕北辙的射手刘嘉玲20多年同居，至今都不愿结婚，他总是说，其实他的人生就是在戏里；我们知道张学友出道前曾经是黑社会的小混混，天天宿醉，自暴自弃，也看到张学友成名后依然为了家庭拼命打拼，几近崩溃……

这就是巨蟹，其实，最能说明巨蟹特质的，就是无论是哪一种蟹，他们都有着分裂的思想。他们渴望安定，也渴望出人头地，他们内心充满艺术的灵感，夸张的幻象，但是在现实生活中，他们总是低眉顺眼，很难真正展露心中的狂想。所以在艺术的舞台上，他们反而得以施展，让心中奇异的狂想放大到极致，他们可以将任何一首歌一个角色演绎的入木三分，所有来自于生活中被动的接受，在艺术的殿堂上得到了最好的宣泄，所以巨蟹真的应该属于舞台。即使没有好的歌喉没有好的外形，但是他们有良好的感受力和表现力，他们的性格实际上更像是一只寄居蟹，在真正自我的生活中，他们常常将自己包裹的很紧，但在诠释和演绎别人的时候，他们那内心的感情得到了释放。

巨蟹座的另一个长处是他们有着哲学的思考力世界因两股力量相互消长，而水象就是典型的阴柔之力。水象星座的人有一种天生的宇宙观，巨蟹也是如此，加之他们天生有母爱的情结，所以他们的思考往往带有着人性化的关怀。所以从事与艺术相关的行业的巨蟹，无论如何都可以算是幸运的巨蟹，因为能够得以发挥天然的性格所长。但是不是每个巨蟹都有这样的机会，所以大多数巨蟹都会感到自己的压抑和痛苦。他们不是没有渴望，相反他们需求很多，渴望很多，但是他们总是躲在自己的壳里做着各式各样的幻梦，只是在想，很少实施。所以如果你看到的总是低眉顺眼的巨蟹实际上并不是真正的巨蟹。那只是巨蟹的一个假象。

永远无法抹去的自卑巨蟹们其实是自我感觉很好的心高气傲的一群人，但是却又难以克服时时刻刻想躲进壳里的自卑感。他们天生多疑和敏感，碰到困难，就先躲进壳里，自欺欺人，在梦中编织自我的安全感，而从来没有想到如何主动将危机转化为机遇。他们对待困难的消极方式，使他们总很难真正木秀于林，他们总在捕捉他们认为最好的时机，但是那个时机却总是无法到来，其实世间哪有万全之策？当蟹蟹们艰苦的自我互博之时，大好时机已经失去。但是要改变这种天生的自卑感确乎很难，蟹蟹们几乎完全不由自主。

怀旧是巨蟹们的人生主旋律巨蟹们非常怀旧。他们喜欢旧东西，怀恋旧感情，对家庭有着天然的眷恋。泛黄的相片，褪色的丝带，尘封的梳妆台……所有一切带有浪漫情调的旧物，都可以让他们独自神伤，黯然追想，他们总是沉浸在过去的回忆里，永远记得年少时的孤寂敏感，永远记得初恋情人，多年后仍然四处找寻初恋情人的消息，慰籍多年来始终保持新鲜的记忆。所以王家卫的电影总喜欢用这样的句式开头：多年以后……

忽冷忽热患得患失的爱情他们天生悲观，永远需要多一点，更多一点的安全感。为什么他们如此需要安全感，因为他们天生就没有安全感，所以他们是很容易恐慌的，所以他们也就变得非常的多疑和猜忌。爱上一个巨蟹是要仔细思量的，因为他们会突然忽冷忽热，突然置之不理，突然恶言相向，但是其实他们并非不爱你，他们有时候是在跟自己呕气。他们渴望天天24小时同你粘在一起，他们对爱人有着强烈的占有欲，恨不得掏心掏肺给你，他们关注你的点点滴滴，小到为你买一支发卡，大到帮你选择哪路公车……他们都费劲心思，他们时时刻刻每件事都为你考量，但又因为付出的不停增加而变得越来越担心害怕，会不会得不到对等的爱。所以他们会突然变得冷淡了，也许只因为你一个眼神，他们就觉得你已经不如从前，于是开始无休止的试探，他们说话总是转弯抹角，但是却总希望你永远清晰表态，假设某天你也含糊了一下，那就完了，蟹蟹们立刻条件反射的开始惴想出无数个虚拟场景，在无尽的悲观中，意淫出种种悲惨场面，然后再见你时，就已经是冷口冷面，甚至说出无比绝情的话语－－所以，你和巨蟹的他们，是要努力去磨合的，给他们足够的信赖和安全，他们回馈你的，绝对让你感动的热泪盈眶。

虚伪包装下易感的心实际上巨蟹善于伪装。他们喜欢笑，无论何时何地，他们常常微笑，也许这笑容有时候让人欣慰，但有时候却会让人感到非常的虚伪。当然巨蟹们也总有自己的小奸小坏，但是他们虚伪的前提却总是先为了保护自己。他们对自己应得的利益是淄铢必较，有时候会让人感到他们是不是很小心眼，但是，在朋友聚会等场合上，他们又绝对是豪爽大方，主动抢着付账的人。所以其实巨蟹是个公私概念很明确的人，他们对该得的绝对毫不客气，而对待朋友，他们又觉得其实这点钱根本不算什么。他们是眷恋朋友和家人的，他们基本都有些喜欢酒。而且酒量都还不错，因为他们眷恋那种宾客相尽欢的气氛，更眷恋着家的和乐融洽之感。所以巨蟹们喜欢做饭，即使不会做饭也对美食有天然偏爱，他们懂得享受居家生活，所以巨蟹们有个理想婚姻是最快乐的事情。问题是巨蟹们却常常选择晚婚或不结婚，因为他们多疑又害怕，他们总是对新幻境充满怀疑，对新的家庭又向往又拒绝，在自我矛盾中，不断蹉跎了年华。

自己为自己创造安定感觉巨蟹们总是不安，这是一种不好的感觉，因为如此，许多巨蟹枉然蹉跎，终日郁郁。其实，巨蟹们可以尝试自己为自己创造安定的感觉。找一个家里人都喜欢的对象，建立一个自己的家，也许巨蟹会发现自己会变得安稳很多。找个摩羯是比较理想的选择。或者找一个自己的爱好，倾注所有的心血，自己也会变得安定很多。当然蟹蟹们也许会说，你这是站着说话不腰疼啊，要是那么容易的话，还用得着你说吗？呵。但是，无论怎样，当我们自己意识到自己的不安，就该努力去克服他，其实壳外的世界，没有那么可怕，这是真的。

总的说来，巨蟹们很可爱，尤其是在艺术上有成就的那些人，他们创造的都是令人仰止的丰碑，所以巨蟹们不必没来由自卑，其实你们都很出色。

Maison Ikkoku..

How many actually know bout this anime/manga?
It was one of my all time favorites.
Saw it durin secondary school life.
I still yearn to rewatch these days..



A story bout this under-grad residin in a place called Maison Ikkoku. He met this beautiful lady who became its housekeeper one day. It was love @ 1st sight. But it wasn't long, before he knew, that she was a widow..

2:25 to 2:50 was where she saw a familiar scene.
She had kept her ex hubby's doggy by her side all the time.
And for a moment, she thought she saw him once again..

4:13 to 4:32 was when the under-grad proposed,
While piggy-backin her father.
He promised to take care of her foreva..

I remember there were a whole loads of other touchy scenes. Like how he swore in front of the ex hubby's grave, to take care of her, and to love her, sayin he won't want to replace him in her heart. She was hidin all along, and was really touched..

Well, other than lotsa other comical scenes, Maison Ikkoku is a pretty neat (and old) anime especially nearin the end. Used to rush home from school just to catch it on tv durin saturdays.

If only i can find its DVD nowadays..

Sunantha is flyin Taiwan in a few hours!
Always envyin her, for all her frequent holidays.
She promised to bring back somethin!
Her smiley faces, ahaha.
Bon Voyage! xD
*Leave me a tag when you read this =P*

Tomorrow's gonna be the discussion between me and my leasor.
Lets hope everythin will go on smoothly.
May them provide me with enough compensation.
Saves me from takin legal action..

Monday's gonna be excitin too.
Meetin my 1st client under Ray's biz.
He is really such a nice friend.
Literally helped me with everything.
He's my self proclaimed best buddy.
I seriously owe him so much..

Anyway, if i manage to clinch the deal,
Its gonna be bout 500 bucks profit.
May it be a successful 1st step.
Pray for me..

Let me introduce another person.
Someone who is important in my life too.

Utada Hikaru..

She has been my all time favorite singer.
Followed her since her 1st few albums.
Was sad she got married to her MTVs director.
And yaa, it is still my favorite song, First Love.



Her birthday, 19th Jan 1983.
5 months older than me.
Though Capricorn, her birthdate is so near to Aquarius.
Thus explained the song.
She'll never forget her first love,
And am always lookin out for him, foreva..

This vid has nice translations, saves me from typin.
Hope you guys will enjoy.
She sang with such feelins..

Ciao.

What is your favorite comic?

For me, it will definitely be Masakazu Katsura's..



Video Girl Ai, my very 1st. Imagine i read it when i was only 8 years old? All the love and relationships. Perhaps that explained why i had always tried so hard since the past. Yaa, comic is always bout fairytales. Pure love, nothin else. But i still believe in true love? Oh well..

Here's another, I"S, came out durin my sec sch years, when i was 13.



Used to read so much of Katsura's, even learnt to draw the characters. Yes, if you're my sec sch classmates, you'll now realise why i always draw faceless portraits in class! Remember i was once caught drawin in the chinese lesson? Made to change seats, moved right to the front with the 3 ladies, FangYu, XiuTing and MiaoHua? Yaaa, i was drawin..

Someone.

She never really figure it out. Nor did i try confessin. She flew anyway, years later, after JC. Got married over there, never to be back again.

Pals, thanks for the party tonight.

It was fun to have a gatherin @ my place. So much food, so much crap, so much fun! Eurotrip is a kickass funny show ok? If only we can all stay the whole night together huh?

Thanks HuiXin aka ZiA, for the bottle of Bailey!
Am seepin it right now =P

Thanks Bryan, JR, MaiDou and WeiMing for the mahjong session.
Poor JR, lost 12bucks playin 10cents 20cents.
LOL.

Thanks YongTang, for accompanyin so many times.
Sorry i finished your Chivas alone the other night.
Have a safe flight to India later ya?
Cyaa on the 5th bro.

Finally, Ray & Carol.
Without you two, this shop won't have its memories.
I still can't accept though,
The fact you said i looked like Wilbur Pan -.-'
Don't mind you sayin i sing like ZhangYu though..
Stay happy always! xD

Last but not least,
Thank mom, for always bein @ my side..

Well, this cafe gonna have an end soon. Can't wait for the meetin up with my leasor. Can't wait for their compensation. Can't wait for my next chapter of life. Its gonna be fun, managin Ray's other biz. It will be a whole new experience.

Lets pray things will work out just fine =]

Btw, someone took this some days back.



I was helpin her with her laptop,
And she took it without my consent.
Kept sayin i don't look photogenic,
Yet naggin @ me to put it up.
She's the few i ever lost Scissors-Paper-Stone to,
Thus, here she go, HER REQUEST.

BE HONOURED -.-"

5am already, friggin tired..
What will i dream tonight?
Most prob somethin pleasant again..
Somethin, happily ever after?

Ciao.

At my cousy's, drinkin.

I'm tipsy.
She's asleep.
The rest is slackin.

Mom broke into tears today.
Just because my shop is endin.
She is havin too much stress.
Just because of the useless guys @ home..

Gave her a deep hug, and said sorry.
Told her to give me more time.
Tryin my best to work out my future.
She's gonna get what she deserves..

Can totally feel what she feels.
The old chap irresponsible since the beginning.
Eldest debt ridden for life, maybe.
While i'm still nowhere there..

By the way, shop wise, its gettin somewhere. Meetin up soon with my leasors, gonna scare the shit out of them. Most prob they didn't know we gonna make them compensate, its gonna be fun. Well, assumin they won't agree so easily, guess its time to get engage in my 1st ever lawsuit.

How cool can it be..

Am thinkin of somebody.
Feels like somethin's missin.
Is it, just me?
If only she'll chat more..

Let me share somethin nice.



Meetin up for a mornin swim later.
Need my wink.

Ciao.

Dozin off this very minute..

SK, Bryan & YT came over last night. Chivas, and a bottle of expired Bailey. Had mahjong too, i was the only loser, tough luck. SK & Bryan left in the mornin, while YT stayed till one pm plus. Opened for business as usual, didn't catch much wink till now..

Who is to blame, when a r.s turns sour?

J has been tellin me bout his heartaches. 3 years, aren't too long or short. It was his first love. Torn apart, dragged, tortured. That was what he felt ever since. It wasn't a clean break. He knew there were unsolved problems. Yet his heart longed for CH still..

"She had never once understood my pain. The days i had to work so hard, just to earn enough. All she ever said, was why i had no time to accompany. All the cash i spent on her, the meals, the dates, it was all from those hard work. But she simply couldn't understand.." said J.

But i thought, it wasn't her fault? What J wanted, was her to understand the hardship he took, to earn enough. The attention she seeked, he ever tried his best to provide, like spendin almost every night with her. But he didn't manage to understand what CH wanted as well..

From how J described, i felt that CH is someone who really requires attention. Perhaps at 27, she needed security as well. But to her, she doesn't appreciate him workin his ass off for her. All she ever wanted was a little more romance..

Conclusion? What he wanted, she couldn't give. What she needed, he didn't provide. It was merely a case of plain mismatch. Perhaps its somethin we all couldn't help. Even if they are able to get together again in future, most prob they can't last. At least, that was what he agreed on too.

When both can't compromise,
He may think she's wrong for not understandin.
But what makes him think he understood her in the 1st place?

So, when a r.s turns sour,
Nobody is at fault.
They just couldn't appreciate each other..

No point turnin love to haterd.
Be brave enough, accept the future.
For all we ever wanted, is happiness.

J, this song is for you.



By the way, did i mention?
I really can't stand bad temper.

Complain at the slightest wrong.
Yell at the slightest anger.
Whine at the slightest pain.

They only know how to spoil other people's day,
When everyone else is tryin so hard to be happier.
Even the best patience wear thin against them.

一点度量都没有,
佛都有火.

Ciao.

"No temperature.."
"No weight.."
"Ashes that will be blown with the slightest wind.."
"This is, Aki.."
"Someone I have ever ever loved....."



'Crying Out Love In The Centre Of The World'
This very show, ever robbed me buckets of tears.

Ever wondered how you will feel?
Just when you started growin up, you found your 1st love.
Just when you started lovin her, you felt happiness.
Just when you started feelin happy, she fell ill.
Just when you started acceptin the truth, she is goin to die..

You walked with her the very last chapter of her life.
You are her everything.
And for you, life has only but begun..

I wonder why love stories are always so perfect.
So attractive.
So lurin.
The true love.

The characters.
They must be Cancerians and Aquarians.
One steps out of his world to care for her for life.
The other spends everything in her life lovin his world.

Aww..

If you ask me, I still believe in true love. I even believe in love @ first sight. I may even believe in lovin a perfect stranger. Nothin is impossible i guess, when it comes to matters of the heart..

Feelins play such a big part, isn't it?

Anyway. For those who may have not known, my cafe may be closin soon. Cash flow bein the least of problems, am actually havin troubles with my leasor. They have infringed the law, and i have to take action against them. Its gonna be bad long weeks..

After spendin tons of cash time and effort, can't believe its goin down like this. My virgin biz, my 1st baby. But well, its not the end of world? Lotsa opportunities around. Am already considerin my options. Guess my family's comfort gotta come slightly later..

Well, do come visit for a meal still, until further notice ya?
I gonna miss my own steamboat..

Take note.
No matter how bad things may be.
Believe in yourself.
Believe in life.
There will be many other routes.

Love ya all, my friends.

Ciao.

I really heart Japanese shows.

Heaven's Coin
Ah Xing
101 Romance
Beautiful Life
1 Litre Of Tears
Kurosagi
Crying Out Love In The Centre Of The World (both movie & drama)
Be With Me
10 Promises To My Dog

So many more.
So meaningful.
But my favorite is still,
Long Vacation..



Above is the scene when Takuya was playin in the piano competition. This is the show, which really sparked my interest in piano. Though i never had the chance of takin lessons, i love piano pieces nonetheless.

I once told myself,
Whoever who plays me Canon in D with heart,
I'll adore her to bits..

Ever thought bout it?

Over the years, you've learnt how to make someone happy. You know what to do, and what not to. You can even create surprises, jottin down things she likes, and send as gifts. You'll tell her how much you dowana leave her alone, when you wanted to go clubbin so badly. You'll tell her how much you missed her, only after being out the whole day. All these little actions, all these sweeet talk..

You're only usin your technique.

Definitely, you want her to be happy, thats why you hone your skills. But, didn't you do the same before? With 100% of your heart? Right at the beginnin of this r.s? So whats wrong now. Do you still love her? Or merely doin for the sake of doin?

Ask yourself.
Is it still Love,
Or is it Technique..

Friday is gonna be wild.
Chivas & Bailey all night.
The guys are comin over for a party.
Time to get high again.

Round & bright, the moon sure looks pretty tonight.
The countless stars.
The beautiful night.
Do they look the same, right where you are?

Ciao.

Lack of sleep accelerates anger?

Reprimanded my mom moments ago, for doin somethin really stupid @ work. Always doin alot of silly things, but she's my mom after all. Had apologised, yet feelin so sore still..

Was on the phone till 5am.

Haven't had such a heart to heart chat for ages. When was the last time i released all my problems and emo to someone? Day by day, troubles accumulated in my soul. Really feels so comfy now, to have someone to pour my heart to..

2 person, can be so similar, yet so different.

For me & JL, we both have useless fathers. They are alive, but as good as gone. Our moms suffered enough just to bring us up, and we really heart them with our lives. Both cancerians, we are emo for our own good. We understand things easily, care for our friends, and are commited in love. We can be so lonely @ times, just because nobody really know how we feel. We just wanted to be happy..

While life has been pretty comfy in monetary sense for her mom owns part of a major travel enterprise in singapore, mine is simply torturin. The difference in our pocket money shows. Pri school: hers 10bucks, mine 50cents. Sec school: hers 50 bucks, mine 2 bucks. I have to save by skippin meals just to hang out with my friends or buy somethin nice, while she always pay for her friends. I have to share clothes with my 7 years older brother and new clothes bought only once a new year, while she has the means of buyin but just doesn't feel like over dressin. I was robbed of the chance to be vain, while she doesn't want to be. Haha..

Life can so twisted.
Why are evil people livin off this world everywhere?
Why are people born to suffer in the 1st place?

Her : If there's a god, he must be so cruel.
Me : If there's a god, he must be tryin to be funny.

Her very best friend got raped & pregnant, yet that bastard ex bf didn't even bother forkin the cash for abortion. The dad was useless too, and she has to work her ass off for cheap labour to feed the family, just because she has mental conditions which prevent her from takin common stress. Worse still, her mom is terminally ill, and will be leavin anytime soon..

My ex gf suffered the same too, forced to marry that jerk in the end. Things weren't as bad, but enough to ruin years of my life..

But i guess there's somethin to be happy bout in the end. For i have met her, a potential soul mate. I have this feelin we are gonna be the best of friends..

Su asked,
If love is important in my life.
I said,
It is more important than life..

Should the day i held riches,
With enterprises under my name,
Yet if i had no true love,
I'll feel like i have never lived before..

Money, its important in life.
Yet without cash, it doesn't mean love can't begin.
Even porridge will taste luxurious, if both dine with happiness.

But perhaps, my ex gf,
She worshipped cash more than her heart..
May she find the happiness she seek.
Without ruinin other people's family, that is..

Am already over her.
Just worried bout Pierce.
Her son, he needs more care.
And i pray, she will be a better mother.

Whoeva the next may be,
She'll be the one i heart most..
Like the song playin,
I will be right here waitin..

Ciao.

凌晨一点半，一个人坐在店里
看着王力宏，听着他的《唯一》
“牵着我的手是你，但你的笑容却看不清”
这句歌词，曾经唱出我的心

一直以为，过去的过去已是过去
但为何，心里还是不能呼吸
难道说，这几年一直逃避
害怕着，一次又一次的抛弃

我的世界，早已变形
好好恋爱，没那么容易
只缺一个，能让我心动的你
也许，这世界会再美丽