Please..
Cherish and Appreciate..
Everyone and Everything..

Just 2 posts ago, i mentioned how i dread deaths..
Yet currently, i have 2 wakes to attend..

Nicole Mok and Lin Mei Yan.
Both sweet and beautiful ladies.
Both are my secondary schoolmates.
Both from the same class.
Both met with car accidents on Friday night..
Both left us on 290808..

Nicole passed on in US. Her body will be flown back on Monday. We will be attendin her wake on Tuesday evenin, Singapore Casket, Ruby room..

As for Mei Yan, we will be headin down tonight. She passed on with her bf, car smashed into a tree at very fast speed. It was really very tragic. It came on the papers. This will be the link to the news..
http://www.omy.sg/News/Local%2BNews/Story/OMYStory200808301616-45027.html

But i was thinkin, at least they left together, havin each other for company. I really can't imagine the situation, if only 1 of them survived........

So, perhaps, it was a blessin in disguise.
They loved each other right till the end of their time..

There are no words to describe my feelins right now.
I'll let this song do the job..


Ciao..

Had ktv the other day!

It has been really long. Visited the latest Partyworld @ Liang Court. Pretty room, beautiful spot lights, and big LCD tv for searchin songs. Really sang our lungs out!

1 of my fav songs,
张智成 - 很想你


But parkin @ Liang Court is really expensive, almost 10 bucks for a few hours. Doubt will frequent, unless i have cravin for japanese food or the double scoop Gelato ice cream i had back then =P

Speakin of music vids, i was reminded of a song from many years back. It was durin poly years when i 1st saw it. Was pretty embarrassed back then, i nearly cried in class!

Yaa, its that sad.
An mtv from Kiss.


I have always wondered if the lady took care of the guy in the end. I think she will, for they were in love. Its his eyes that she has anyway. I would have done the same..

Seriously, not much mood to blog recently. Must be the bangkok trip, still in holidayin mood. Or perhaps, i just don't have the feel anymore, stayin in this room..

Shall blog again when i'm emo.

Ciao.

Mandai Crematorium..

A place we won't wanna be? Each time we step into that forsaken place, cries will be heard, tears will be dropped. We'll all lose someone precious..

Joe flew back days back for his dad's funeral. I cancelled my mornin appointment to join him in the wake. Not much words exchanged, his heart was weary. Just a few pat on his back, hopin everythin is ok. And the heavy rain, it wasn't pleasin..

Quiet it was at the crematorium, till the furnace door opened. As the wooden coffin made its way, cries were loud. Even a stranger who had never seen the person journeyin to the neither world, dropped a few tears. I earnestly bowed. It wasn't an easy sight..

Life is just so friggin fragile?

Not only that we may just pass on anytime in our life, but the aftermath, bringin so much sorrows to everyone else. Though we all have to resign to Fate, when we need to go, we need to go. But, it just aren't somethin pleasant..

So, shouldn't we Cherish even more? Our families, our friends, our love. Nothin can be said when its all too late. Shouldn't we work harder with our goals, our dreams, and our life? Rather than whinin bout hardship, problems, and over a stupid worthless guy?

Someone just told me she's tired of livin last night. Asked her to take a visit at the hospital. HOW MANY TERMINALLY ILLED PATIENTS WOULD LOVE TO SWITCH PLACE? I mean, they are not even given a chance? I am damn sure they are ALL SO WILLING to exchange their short lives for our insignificant problems. Yet, someone as healthy as her, wished to end her sufferins? Give me a break..

世上无难事,
只怕有心人.
Buck up ya.
Aren't we all fightin hard for our own happiness..

I will love to enjoy every moment i have,
With someone i truly love.

Therefore,
I dedicate yet another fav song of mine,
From yet another fav movie,
To everyone else readin my blog now.

Do turn on the volume loud.


Have a nice weekend everyone.

Ciao.

I'm BACK..

I'm a thai who come sg only for business trips and will return back home every month to enjoy.. ROAR!

Body is in sg, but why is my heart still stayin in Bangkok? Why is it so attractive over there? The customer service is simply top notch, everyone bow & smile to me. The shoppin malls, some easily top our very own Paragon or Vivo. The youngsters there are also duper vain & trendy, all so good lookin & pretty. 99% of them don't wear specs, made me threw mine in hotel since day 1. And believe me, all were so shocked when they tried chattin with Ray & i, but realised we aren't thai. Ahaha.

I totally miss the thai massage i had every night. Needless to mention bout food. There's this fried chicken roadstall near our hotel we bought each time we passed by, way better & cheaper than KFC! Their cabbies are soo skillful too, each drivin like Daytona lol. Chatuchak is a nice place, where i would really love to grab some little puppies next time i visit. THEY ARE JUST SO ADORABLE!! Anyway, we guys didn't do much shoppin other than for his gf. Cleared almost all the shoppin malls by Day 2.

Oh, we caught Wall-E! Such a nice show, but thats not the point. The cinema! Its so much more grand than sg's! Such cozy seats & cheap tix + popcorn LOL! We also had a dental appointment near our hotel, teeth cleanin is only bout 30bucks! Bought a thai magazine too, featurin some of their famous celebrities.



Kept seein these 2 young ladies on tv & lotsa other magazines.





Such a cutie! I pray my future daughter is gonna be as pretty xD



Last but not least, a friend we made in thailand.
Aren't she pretty?
But, ahhaa..
She's a ladyboy!
Believe it or not!

I'll start linkin vids again in my next post. Wanted to post the 'Bunny Magic Show' before the start of Wall-E movie, its friggin cute & funny. But youtube removed the clip. Zzz..

Thats all for today..

Ciao.

An old nice song to share.



And Hermione is the only character i like in Harry Porter. I'm honestly not a big fan of the movie series either. Heard the books were way better.

Am pretty tied up recently, no time to blog. Have been settlin issues @ my shop, tomorrow will be the last day. Friday evenin i'm flyin off Bangkok, so guess its another few days before any updates. Till then?

Oh ya, i'm home. Moved back an hour ago, not totally done with unpackin. Really don't feel like so. It seems i'll be packin up and movin out anytime again. Almost laughed when i saw my bed. It laid there, for a year. Why am i back to square one..

Recently made a really sweeet friend. Never thought i'll msg her @ first, but she turns out to be someone i really enjoy chattin with. Hope this good moment gonna last a little longer than usual..

Quite alot in common. Both cancerians. Both love doggies. Both enjoy 'Phantom of the Opera'. She promised she'll watch with me when it hits sg again. I can't wait..

And this particular song, is my fav in the movie version.



I shall return, on 18th.
Take care, dear pals.

Ciao.

Perhaps, the saddest song on earth..

Watch him play.
Hear him sing.
See him cry..



This song is a long lost memory of mine.
ZiA made me recall by chance.
And i'm glad it is back on my mind, after so many years..

It was durin army days, facin the aftermath from the break up with Min. Walked into HMV one day, saw this new single with the title 'Last Song'. I bought it without even listenin..

Their normal version is guitar based, much heavier, but the lyrics striked through my heart in an instant. Now, watchin this great unplugged performance, readin the lyrics as he sings, really got me very emo, just like before..

The lyrics in the clip are abit different from what i remembered. If only i still have the singles with me. But its still bout the same meanin, nonetheless..

Ahhh..
What a nice song..
Memories..

I went back home days ago.

It has been, almost a year? Time really flies. I still remember the day i stepped out of the door, with my clothes and stuff. Now, the house has such an unfamiliar smell..

My room doesn't look the same anymore. Gone are my pillows, my blanket. Even cupboards are empty. Lookin at the empty space, i really wondered..

Maybe, i'll forget everythin.
Maybe, i'll forgive everyone.
Maybe, i'll just move back home..

Was feelin feverish and fluish.

Even so, i still went for a bball session with Ray, Carol and YongTang hours ago. Had a good sweat, hopin i'll get better. But seems like it was in vain, my nose is still runny..

Oh well, it was a good exercise. We had too much crabs for dinner anyway. The pincer was BIGGER than my palm, and i'm not kiddin. Should have taken pics =/

I've resumed my past routine of 100 pushups a day once again, added some squat exercises for my calfs and thighs too. Half hearted though, gave myself an excuse to skip today's since i'm sick ahaha. Was thinkin, since i no longer have to bury myself with shop, no r.s to enjoy, soo much free time. I might as well stay healthier..

My career with Ray's biz is like a growin bud. With a little more hardwork, i'm sure i'll be able to pull it off. Am already seein some of the cash, it'll be a good experience and chance to store up financially, especially after losin so much for my closed steamboat cafe..

There is this sayin,
每个成功的男人背后, 都有一个女人..
(Behind every successful man, there will be this woman)

I beg to differ.
It should be,
每个成功的男人背后, 都有一个好女人..
(Behind every successful man, there will be this good woman)

But too bad, maybe i won't succeed yet. For, i have not found that really nice companion, who'll support me whole heartedly, and love me with all her life..

The last r.s with Jolyn was absolutely rubbish, not pointin faults, just a total mismatch that shouldn't have begun. For Inin, i gave up first for her happiness, can't blame anyone else. And Min, i can only say it is our Destiny..

Suddenly, it just strikes me.
Even though i felt someone in my heart.
I seriously wonder who's next.

May she be the last of my life..

Ciao.

Cousy sent me this song & i totally fell in love with it..



Leona Lewis is a darn pretty lady.
Bleeding Love is a darn nice song.
Need to explain more?

But i chose FFX/X2 over her original MTV.

FFX is still my favorite game. It has the best story ever. For summary, one day Tidus was sent to the future unwillingly. Met Yuna, and decided to accompany her on her journey to attain more powers in order to battle 'Sin', a monster that had killed loads of souls for centuries. It wasn't long, before he realised she'll die after usin the attained power to defeat 'Sin'. And she finally got to know that 'Sin' is actually Tidus's father, in a twist. They both fell in love still..

Sad story.
Tears rolled durin its endin.
You'll understand after watchin this.



A little extra info. Tidus taught Yuna how to whistle durin the journey. He told her, whenever she's alone or needed him, she just have to whistle. He'll always be there for her..

I remember teachin my ex how to whistle too.
But this is not important, ahaha.

I used FFX for the vid, partly because of someone too. A friend i hardly get to see online, but really cherished each conversation we had. Though we only knew each other weeks back, its really nice to have someone to have a goood chat with. Especially after knowin she enjoys drawin too..

She showed me her drawins of Yuna.
Am not goin to post her drawins without permission,
But they are really nice..

Below will be some of my own drawins that night.



Aren't very good at drawin features.



Another blur picture.
I still prefer faceless.
(Please ignore the numbers)



My new friend, Jeannie!
I thought it really resembles her.
But sadly she didn't seem to appreciate it faceless..



Ahaha, who might this guy be? =P



Last but not least, the piece of paper i drew on.
Think i shall keep this somewhere.

I still have lotsa to blog bout, as usual. But i guess that will be all for tonight. 2am soon, soo tired. Someone approached me on the street, am comin over for a talk bout insurance tomorrow. Guess i better sleep..

Ciao.

Time to introduce my blog's theme!



Serendipity.
'A fortunate accident'
Isn't it such a lovely word?

Nope, this is not a new show, 8 years old, but i still heart it lotsa. Its a crazy story bout 2 strangers met up by Chance, havin such strong chemistry and yearnin for each other, but both attached in reality and belonged to different worlds. They let Fate decides, by doin alot of uncommon things to challenge their Destiny, only to get seperated. But things never ended that night..

I love the part where Sara challenged John to take different elevators and choose a storey of their fancy, to see if they'll still meet up by Fate. Both chose my favorite number, 23..

I'm not goin to be a spoiler, catch the show yourself.
Its a MUST-SEE, kay?
99% of you people readin my blog will love it!
1% most prob bein GUYS, lol..

There's somethin i've been lookin for a very long time.

A small treasure box,
That can only be opened with 2 keys.

Imagine, with it i can keep all the memories and happiness with my sweetheart, only to be opened when both of us wanted. We can even keep individual secrets, only to surface years down the road, when we think its time to let each other know. It'll be like a little time capsule, within lies all the monuments of our love..

That is,
If i found the box, and
If i found someone worthy..

Anyway.

This is 1 of my MUST-SING song in ktv.
Meaningful lyrics.
Thought i should share.

你忘不了开始的甜蜜
却怕想起未来的情景
他是会认错的听你哭泣
直到下次又不小心忘记

你解释着孤寂和无力
他却相信那只是情绪
当埋怨都变得没有意义
你想留住的是什么东西

离开爱过的人和回忆
怎能不挣札不痛心
但是一个最难的决定
往往是最好的决定

让懂你的人爱你
重选一份值得坚持的感情
爱只要有一点点冲动就可以
了解却少些默契都不行

让懂你的人爱你
别舍不得过去只为了可惜
相爱不只是进去对方的生活
更要能走入彼此的生命

Ciao.

巨蟹座终极完美分析

巨蟹是心软的，容易被感动，即使表面看起来总是有一副硬硬的壳，但那壳子底下是一颗柔软敏感到极至的内心。它们面对一份感情是犹豫再三的，不要说它们懦弱，它们只是明白自己是容易受伤的。他们对感情抱有信仰，相信纯真、相信天长地久，所以有时是挑剔的。这是一层表面坚硬的壳，其实攻克轻而易举，因为蟹蟹有一颗柔软的心。

蟹蟹恋爱了，这时的它们变的很粘人，很婆妈，因为你是它的中心，它会为你考虑很多，饭吃了吗？天气会变了吗？记得带伞哦！路上车多，慢点走哦！……..诸如此类！

蟹蟹是深情而痴情的，爱上一个人会爱的很深，即使明知道没有结果也很难自拔。这是巨蟹的一种固执，想要得到的东西，往往不会轻易放手。有时，一段没有结果的恋情会成为蟹蟹的生活重心。这无疑是痛苦的，但又难以自拔。然而，巨蟹的不安全感又在内心大叫着放弃，所以这时的蟹蟹总是在坚持和放弃的巨大矛盾中苦苦煎熬着。

学会放弃是蟹蟹的一门功课。当然，如果蟹蟹真的决定放弃了，它的坚决会让所有人吃惊。要记住：除了你自己，没有人可以伤害到你

蟹子是痴情的，但又不善于表达，面对自己心爱的人拘谨、放不开。它们的幽默感此刻变得生涩。

蟹子是深情的，但又不善于把握，为什么一次次控制不住自己的情绪，说出明知不该讲的话？

分裂而善于幻想的寄居蟹在说巨蟹之前，先说说几个一直以来欣赏的几个偶像，他们都不同，但他们有一个共同点，就是，他们都是巨蟹男。

周星驰，王家卫，罗大佑，李宗盛，梁朝伟，张学友……一般在每次排行榜中总是靠末的巨蟹们，看起来并没有很明显的个性，但是，他们在艺术方面的直觉和敏锐却是别人难以匹敌，从这几个人名里就不难看出。他们在生活中都是温文尔雅的，被动的，甚至往往是沉默的，但是在他们的电影，歌曲中，却展露出令人惊异的才华，让我们总是不由自主的为之倾倒。当周星驰让我们笑得泪水横流的时候，我们也早听闻其实戏外的他认真严肃，不苟言笑，对待朋友和情人都很苛刻；我们知道在戏里演什么都神形毕似的影帝梁朝伟同性格南辕北辙的射手刘嘉玲20多年同居，至今都不愿结婚，他总是说，其实他的人生就是在戏里；我们知道张学友出道前曾经是黑社会的小混混，天天宿醉，自暴自弃，也看到张学友成名后依然为了家庭拼命打拼，几近崩溃……

这就是巨蟹，其实，最能说明巨蟹特质的，就是无论是哪一种蟹，他们都有着分裂的思想。他们渴望安定，也渴望出人头地，他们内心充满艺术的灵感，夸张的幻象，但是在现实生活中，他们总是低眉顺眼，很难真正展露心中的狂想。所以在艺术的舞台上，他们反而得以施展，让心中奇异的狂想放大到极致，他们可以将任何一首歌一个角色演绎的入木三分，所有来自于生活中被动的接受，在艺术的殿堂上得到了最好的宣泄，所以巨蟹真的应该属于舞台。即使没有好的歌喉没有好的外形，但是他们有良好的感受力和表现力，他们的性格实际上更像是一只寄居蟹，在真正自我的生活中，他们常常将自己包裹的很紧，但在诠释和演绎别人的时候，他们那内心的感情得到了释放。

巨蟹座的另一个长处是他们有着哲学的思考力世界因两股力量相互消长，而水象就是典型的阴柔之力。水象星座的人有一种天生的宇宙观，巨蟹也是如此，加之他们天生有母爱的情结，所以他们的思考往往带有着人性化的关怀。所以从事与艺术相关的行业的巨蟹，无论如何都可以算是幸运的巨蟹，因为能够得以发挥天然的性格所长。但是不是每个巨蟹都有这样的机会，所以大多数巨蟹都会感到自己的压抑和痛苦。他们不是没有渴望，相反他们需求很多，渴望很多，但是他们总是躲在自己的壳里做着各式各样的幻梦，只是在想，很少实施。所以如果你看到的总是低眉顺眼的巨蟹实际上并不是真正的巨蟹。那只是巨蟹的一个假象。

永远无法抹去的自卑巨蟹们其实是自我感觉很好的心高气傲的一群人，但是却又难以克服时时刻刻想躲进壳里的自卑感。他们天生多疑和敏感，碰到困难，就先躲进壳里，自欺欺人，在梦中编织自我的安全感，而从来没有想到如何主动将危机转化为机遇。他们对待困难的消极方式，使他们总很难真正木秀于林，他们总在捕捉他们认为最好的时机，但是那个时机却总是无法到来，其实世间哪有万全之策？当蟹蟹们艰苦的自我互博之时，大好时机已经失去。但是要改变这种天生的自卑感确乎很难，蟹蟹们几乎完全不由自主。

怀旧是巨蟹们的人生主旋律巨蟹们非常怀旧。他们喜欢旧东西，怀恋旧感情，对家庭有着天然的眷恋。泛黄的相片，褪色的丝带，尘封的梳妆台……所有一切带有浪漫情调的旧物，都可以让他们独自神伤，黯然追想，他们总是沉浸在过去的回忆里，永远记得年少时的孤寂敏感，永远记得初恋情人，多年后仍然四处找寻初恋情人的消息，慰籍多年来始终保持新鲜的记忆。所以王家卫的电影总喜欢用这样的句式开头：多年以后……

忽冷忽热患得患失的爱情他们天生悲观，永远需要多一点，更多一点的安全感。为什么他们如此需要安全感，因为他们天生就没有安全感，所以他们是很容易恐慌的，所以他们也就变得非常的多疑和猜忌。爱上一个巨蟹是要仔细思量的，因为他们会突然忽冷忽热，突然置之不理，突然恶言相向，但是其实他们并非不爱你，他们有时候是在跟自己呕气。他们渴望天天24小时同你粘在一起，他们对爱人有着强烈的占有欲，恨不得掏心掏肺给你，他们关注你的点点滴滴，小到为你买一支发卡，大到帮你选择哪路公车……他们都费劲心思，他们时时刻刻每件事都为你考量，但又因为付出的不停增加而变得越来越担心害怕，会不会得不到对等的爱。所以他们会突然变得冷淡了，也许只因为你一个眼神，他们就觉得你已经不如从前，于是开始无休止的试探，他们说话总是转弯抹角，但是却总希望你永远清晰表态，假设某天你也含糊了一下，那就完了，蟹蟹们立刻条件反射的开始惴想出无数个虚拟场景，在无尽的悲观中，意淫出种种悲惨场面，然后再见你时，就已经是冷口冷面，甚至说出无比绝情的话语－－所以，你和巨蟹的他们，是要努力去磨合的，给他们足够的信赖和安全，他们回馈你的，绝对让你感动的热泪盈眶。

虚伪包装下易感的心实际上巨蟹善于伪装。他们喜欢笑，无论何时何地，他们常常微笑，也许这笑容有时候让人欣慰，但有时候却会让人感到非常的虚伪。当然巨蟹们也总有自己的小奸小坏，但是他们虚伪的前提却总是先为了保护自己。他们对自己应得的利益是淄铢必较，有时候会让人感到他们是不是很小心眼，但是，在朋友聚会等场合上，他们又绝对是豪爽大方，主动抢着付账的人。所以其实巨蟹是个公私概念很明确的人，他们对该得的绝对毫不客气，而对待朋友，他们又觉得其实这点钱根本不算什么。他们是眷恋朋友和家人的，他们基本都有些喜欢酒。而且酒量都还不错，因为他们眷恋那种宾客相尽欢的气氛，更眷恋着家的和乐融洽之感。所以巨蟹们喜欢做饭，即使不会做饭也对美食有天然偏爱，他们懂得享受居家生活，所以巨蟹们有个理想婚姻是最快乐的事情。问题是巨蟹们却常常选择晚婚或不结婚，因为他们多疑又害怕，他们总是对新幻境充满怀疑，对新的家庭又向往又拒绝，在自我矛盾中，不断蹉跎了年华。

自己为自己创造安定感觉巨蟹们总是不安，这是一种不好的感觉，因为如此，许多巨蟹枉然蹉跎，终日郁郁。其实，巨蟹们可以尝试自己为自己创造安定的感觉。找一个家里人都喜欢的对象，建立一个自己的家，也许巨蟹会发现自己会变得安稳很多。找个摩羯是比较理想的选择。或者找一个自己的爱好，倾注所有的心血，自己也会变得安定很多。当然蟹蟹们也许会说，你这是站着说话不腰疼啊，要是那么容易的话，还用得着你说吗？呵。但是，无论怎样，当我们自己意识到自己的不安，就该努力去克服他，其实壳外的世界，没有那么可怕，这是真的。

总的说来，巨蟹们很可爱，尤其是在艺术上有成就的那些人，他们创造的都是令人仰止的丰碑，所以巨蟹们不必没来由自卑，其实你们都很出色。

Maison Ikkoku..

How many actually know bout this anime/manga?
It was one of my all time favorites.
Saw it durin secondary school life.
I still yearn to rewatch these days..



A story bout this under-grad residin in a place called Maison Ikkoku. He met this beautiful lady who became its housekeeper one day. It was love @ 1st sight. But it wasn't long, before he knew, that she was a widow..

2:25 to 2:50 was where she saw a familiar scene.
She had kept her ex hubby's doggy by her side all the time.
And for a moment, she thought she saw him once again..

4:13 to 4:32 was when the under-grad proposed,
While piggy-backin her father.
He promised to take care of her foreva..

I remember there were a whole loads of other touchy scenes. Like how he swore in front of the ex hubby's grave, to take care of her, and to love her, sayin he won't want to replace him in her heart. She was hidin all along, and was really touched..

Well, other than lotsa other comical scenes, Maison Ikkoku is a pretty neat (and old) anime especially nearin the end. Used to rush home from school just to catch it on tv durin saturdays.

If only i can find its DVD nowadays..

Sunantha is flyin Taiwan in a few hours!
Always envyin her, for all her frequent holidays.
She promised to bring back somethin!
Her smiley faces, ahaha.
Bon Voyage! xD
*Leave me a tag when you read this =P*

Tomorrow's gonna be the discussion between me and my leasor.
Lets hope everythin will go on smoothly.
May them provide me with enough compensation.
Saves me from takin legal action..

Monday's gonna be excitin too.
Meetin my 1st client under Ray's biz.
He is really such a nice friend.
Literally helped me with everything.
He's my self proclaimed best buddy.
I seriously owe him so much..

Anyway, if i manage to clinch the deal,
Its gonna be bout 500 bucks profit.
May it be a successful 1st step.
Pray for me..

Let me introduce another person.
Someone who is important in my life too.

Utada Hikaru..

She has been my all time favorite singer.
Followed her since her 1st few albums.
Was sad she got married to her MTVs director.
And yaa, it is still my favorite song, First Love.



Her birthday, 19th Jan 1983.
5 months older than me.
Though Capricorn, her birthdate is so near to Aquarius.
Thus explained the song.
She'll never forget her first love,
And am always lookin out for him, foreva..

This vid has nice translations, saves me from typin.
Hope you guys will enjoy.
She sang with such feelins..

Ciao.