Went Partyworld yesterday.

Met up with Elaine and GB in the noon and we sang at Clementi. Had a great time singing new songs, and trying those I had never attempt before. Enjoyed singing duets with Elaine. But perhaps I might have sung a little too many songs, the duo did't sing much. Can see Elaine was tired, and GB didn't really want to sing. Oh well..

Sadly, after the singing we went our own separate ways. GB went home to study, and Elaine went home for dinner. I wanted to meet up with Charis, been long since I last met her, but she's tired. Hope I'll meet up with Charis soon. Sweet girl. Anyway I met up with Xx instead at Bishan. We had Café Cartel, a little shopping after that, and she went to meet her friends at the end. Sigh..

Really wondering how she is doing nowadays. Missed her..

Recently saw The Wild. Hey, it's a damn funny show! Can't compare to Ice Age 2 definitely, but I dare say it is the 2nd funniest! Especially that stupid koala bear! Go catch it man lol. By the way I watched 2 shows today, Hitch and Cinderella Man. Both are nice, if you haven't watch it yet, do get the VCDs? Can always get me to burn for you too.

I sound a little monotonous today. Well, it has been a boring day.

Ciao.

Yo.

No inspiration to blog recently, mind occupied by many other stuff. Life is a little topsy turvy nowadays, woke up at night and sleeping in the morning. Feels like holidays again.

Went swimming days back. Realised I’m still pretty noob in the water. Most prob I won’t drown, but my free style won’t take me anywhere either. Had a good time in the sun though, skin are shedding now. Have been wanting to get a good tan. Maybe I’ll go again soon.

Watched Eight Below few nights ago. A nice touching show worth 8 bucks, especially if you’re an animal lover. The huskies are beauties I tell you, make me wanna have my own. Though the plot is simple, but there are scenes your heart will miss a beat. Go catch it, I recommend it.

Most prob will be having another ktv session with cousin later. Its fun when you’re with 1 or 2 close friends trying out songs you had never sung before. I love singing, even though I’m not David Tao nor Jay Chow. Many say I sing like Zhang Yu, not sure if that’s a compliment though. Bah.

Speaking of cousin, he is finally going to serve the nation. June is drawing near, any last wishes? Bwahahahaha *evil laugh* =P

To be honest I was pretty worried how is life goner be like when I was about to serve NS. Except for those ‘knock it down!’ and ‘sign extra!’, it turns out to be pretty fun. Though something drastic happened to me during BMT, I did enjoy myself for the rest of the time. My close friends should know, bout my dramatic breakup and stuff. Those 3 months held the most painful memories of my life. Nonetheless I got over it, and ya, felt like I had gone through hell and back again.

I still wish Min well, may her have all the happiness she sought, and the marriage be a blissful journey for both.

Days back when Xx asked me if I had ever chatted with someone on the phone till either one of us fall asleep, I recalled a lot of things. There’s only one person I had ever did that with. Chatted till so tired but yet unwilling to hang up. That was how sweet things were in the past. If only.. =]

曾经把爱想得太简单，
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖。

OMG! Rainny is back in Singapore!
*~*~WELCOME HOME~*~*

Don’t know why but I felt sad when you flew off last time. How I wish you’ll stay for good this time. Remember our promise, we will meet up someday..

Gosh, written so much tonight and I were complaining that I had no inspiration. -.-“

Ciao.

Been slacking..

Hanging around with my cousins nowadays. Went kbox today, tried a lot of songs that I have never thought of attempting before. A whole noon of off tunes and cracking glass. Realised my cousin improved in singing.

I really love sad songs..

Speaking of ktv, I am sad. Supposed to meet up with a few sec sch friends for singing this Thursday, but someone aeroplaned. Ditched us for a pair of free tickets to a sneak preview, how worse can things be? It hurts. I am not angry, just disappointed.

Totally..

人生是什么？
快乐和幸福又是什么？
是金钱？还是感情？
是朋友？还是爱情？
是活得精彩？还是活得开心？
是活得自由？还是活得有意义？

悲伤的事一个接一个，会快乐吗？
想得到的得不到，会幸福吗？
我有钱，也没人分享。
感情丰富，但没人欣赏。
朋友再多，也没人理会。
想谈恋爱，但没人了解。
23年的光阴平淡无乏，充满悲伤。
拥有的自由有限，毫无意义。

不去想，别人会说我缺乏远见。
想太多，别人又说我想法另类。
是天意弄人？
还是自食其果?

Think I�m too chim tonight. Just a sudden flow of thoughts. I really need a break from everything. I really need to go on a trip to sort out my feelings.

Recently I�m admiring a girl. She�s 22 years old, very talented, very demure. Its not the cuteness of her image, but the way she bring herself. A long tough route she had walked, a great success she deserves. I sincerely pray she�ll be blessed with happiness, and the days she spend in joy. Her name is Rainny杨丞琳.

Ciao.

Once again it has been a few days.

Recently met up with my sec school classmates for dinner. Remember the stingray I praised during previous entries? We had a feast there. It is very fun to meet up after a whole 7 years, chatting and joking about the past and stuff. Lotsa gossips lol managed to find out lotsa stuff we didn�t get to know last time. Memories.

Everyone seems to be fine. But deep inside I saw troubles in their hearts. Shall not mention who in particular, they should know who they are. I�m not a guru in heart matters, but I guess I just knew. Sincerely hope everyone will do well for years to come, and we will be able to meet up all the time.

7 years ago I used to have feelings for someone. I can still remember the pager songs, the messages, the CD, etc. I had a heartbreak during that time. 7 years later the feelings still linger, and meeting up triggers it every time. Now everyone have their own life, and I just care for everyone, just her more.

Some asked about Miss Tan, how is it going and stuff. I can only say it is just a feeling of mine, it came, and I responded to it. But I didn�t take initiative and I wasn�t convinced at all. To me, it takes 2 hands to clap, and when I am denied of answers I seek, I believe nothing is going to happen. It is a chore to love and care and hurt myself in the process. So I have decided to let go, and like the heart candies, it will fade away day by day.

Maybe I�m just a person with too many feelings.

I might be taking a trip to Taiwan soon, going for a stroll and breather. Thanks government for the 900bucks, though I had already donated 100bucks to Chen Su Lan Chidlren�s Home. The remaining 800bucks will do me good overseas.

I�ll post again soon.

Ciao.

Long time no blog.

Things have been fine. Though I�m still lost seeking for directions, my days are still alright. Haven�t been sleeping much lately, have such a shag face and fair skin. Didn�t head out for the whole bloody week. I look terrible.

Met up with buddy CG at Bishan today. Did a little shopping, and I caught Failure to Launch with him. Hey peeps, it�s a very nice movie, kept me laughing non stop. You guys should catch it too.

Had a little surprise today. Got a package. Inside I found a packet of heart candies, and it is my favorite flavor, melon. There�s also a keychain which I kept it in my drawer now, together with all my other precious letters and gifts. I�m using the previous keychain, and doubt I�ll change it until it is too worn out. There�s this cute little bear too! So cute till I don�t know how to describe it. It is a June bear, and it has the number 23 on it. Love it.

I�m so not used to this kind of sweetness. Never had anyone who will make such effort that comes from within the heart. I am touched. You seriously made my life a lot brighter than it seems.

Thanks Miss Tan.

Ciao.

Watched TransAmerica on Friday.

Supposed to meet up Xx after her classes end at 10pm, but in the end I was late again. I�m starting to be late whenever I�m meeting her nowadays, lol. Anyway we strolled from City Hall to Parklane where she went to meet up some friends at E-Games. Soon we strolled to Cineleisure again for the movie.

I was pretty surprised the seats we got were on the 2nd row up front, didn�t strike me that so many people will watch that R(21) show. It was a pretty nice story, gave me a similar feeling from BrokeBack, just less touching with less action. The only thing you get to see throughout the show is the transexual�s �thing�. Oh ya, not forgetting a couple of yandao�s butt as well.

Wasn�t in the best of moods that night. I believe Xx wasn�t either, and she was so tired. The show ended around 1 plus, and we went home straight after. Felt so lousy.

Saturday was pretty boring as well.

Slept till late noon, went cousin�s place for Lord of the Ring, rotting my time away before I got home at 2am last night. I was the only walking soul in the whole bloody quiet neighbourhood lor? There�s this school I have to pass by, so eerie. Then right beside my place is this wide open field and a mini forest, with lotsa strays howling, so spooky too. It will be funny if I�m to see a beautiful lady in red or white at that time. But I don�t think I mind, lol.

Today is home alone day, as usual. Most prob I�ll head to cousin�s place for LOTR part 3 later. Been missing the gym for days, I should be heading back on Monday. As for jogging, my last was Thursday, and I�m feeling so damn lazy nowadays. My tummy can�t convince me, how?

Haven�t been chatting much with Miss Tan nowadays, and I hate that feeling.

Ciao.

It has been awhile.

I am fine. Been spending days trying to ease my mind, finding solutions to the problems I face. Solved a few, others still pending. I�ll see what I can do.

Life is full of tests and obstacles. Reality is pretty cruel. Things always happen. And it is how individual handles the situation that makes the difference. Many couldn�t take the torment and blame God, fate, or even destiny for their problems. They had never blamed themselves though, for it is often their own wrong doings that bring them their downfalls. They simply couldn�t realise things until it is all too late.

Humans are pitiful. They always contradict themselves. As a bystander, they can give the most wonderful advises ever. But as a victim, they often fall into the deepest of pits, drowning in their own sorrows and pain and misery, never to rise again. No matter what we bystanders can say, words are merely a form of encouragement and guidance. The actual route is chosen by the tormented souls themselves. Be it the road to happiness or destruction, it is their own decisions. No one can interfere.

Many think smiling through the hard times is merely faking happiness. But I�ll rather work on smiling than sulking through my life. Learn to isolate problems and tackle them rather than crying over spilled milk and still crying. To me, it will take more courage smiling than crying.

Find meaning in life.

Ciao.

I was sleepless..

Tossed and turned the whole night.. Couldn�t fall asleep until around 6am.. Woke up at 930am to meet Samuel for gym, but seriously wasn�t in the mood.. Felt like my soul had left my body.. Lifeless.. Aimless.. Meaningless..

Sorry pals.. Things aren�t smooth at all recently.. A lot of troubles brewing.. And I�m very stressed with a lot of stuff.. My one and only pillar of hope crashed yesterday.. And now it seems like there is nothing left for me to hold on anymore..

I promise I�ll update as soon as things get better..

Ciao..

Went out with Mom today.

We headed for Takashimaya 1st. Xx have a box of oracle cards with me and I exchanged a new set for her. Mom had a haircut too. Anyway, is it so weird for a 23 year old to accompany his Mom for shopping in town? I admit we are both casually dressed, but what is with the attention today? Especially the girls, staring as though I�m a freak. Irritating.

We went Bugis to pray afterwards. No crowd, no pushing. I prayed for many people today. No point praying for myself, because I used to do so and it doesn�t work. Anyway it will be nice seeing my love ones doing good. More than enough.

After praying Mom and I went to meet up with my small aunt and uncle for a little chit chatting. Soon all 4 of us went to another aunt and uncle�s place to gather. The aunties started their usual round of �4 colour cards�, while uncles and I watched tv and drank Champaign. Soon it was 12 midnight and here I am, just got back, blogging.

Miss Tan wore the necklace I got her today.

You know, you don�t care for someone hoping that she will care for you too. You do little things to make her happy, and her smile will be the best gift in return.

I had a surprise overseas call from a long lost friend. She really made my day.

Ciao.

Today is my cousin�s wedding.

Remember the cute little girl whom is always in my baby photos? Yup, she is the beautiful bride today. A year older than me, my beloved biao jie is finally walking down the aisle with her one and only hubby. May their marriage be blissful and happy!

I took a lot of photos with my cousins today, but only managed to take those few with my phone. So I�ll upload the rest once I got hold on them. Think I down more than 10 glasses of red wine today, so my head is a little heavy right now. Lotsa good food too, I�m getting fat.

Burning sharkfin. Just pour some wine and light it up. Our family style of eating.

Its such a wonderful feeling walking down the aisle with your love one. To me, the feeling of getting married is like �I�m finally yours�. Thinking about spending the rest of our lives together alone will make me so damn happy can. Think I goner be so touched at my own wedding next time.

I simply love weddings.

Ciao.